Confused Feelings?! [Henry/open]

[rebekah]

24th November, 2008

Rebekah was feeling a little lost and confused and the only person she could think of to talk to about it was Henry. Henry being one of those very reasons for her confusion. She remembered their first meeting and how easy it has been to talk to him, even though she had killed a man who had attacked her. She had thought there was something between them, and then she had met James. She fell and she fell hard and quite quickly.

However since that night she and James had spent together, and then moved in with him because she had been attacked in her own home she began to wonder just how close they actually were. He had said he would never leave her side after the incident at her home, but even she knew he couldn't be with her all the time, he needed his freedom as well as protecting her. He had said he loved her and she said it back, but did they really feel that way about each other? She thought she loved him, but now she wasn't so sure. She was basically confused.

Taking out her cell phone on her way to New York, she sent Henry a text message:

Hi Henry, can you meet me at Harry's Cafe in Lower Manhattan please? I need to talk to you. Thanks. Love Rebekah x

Now she was sitting in Harry's Cafe, with a cappuccino and sipping on it and hoping he would arrive some soon. She had to sort her feelings out one way or the other, and if Henry decided they could only be friends, well then she'd just have to settle for that and try and work things through with James, or be back to her lonely little self with Snowy for company.

[henry]

Henry had been sleeping peacefully in his bed when his cell phone let off an annoying beep, signaling a text message. His head shot up and he looked around for the source of his rude awakening. Through half closed eyes, Henry spotted his phone and read the text on it. If he hadn't been too tired from eight straight hours of Halo with James and Amanda he would've smiled his usual smirk. However at the moment all he could do was give a short, "Huh." and fall back on his bed at a weird angle.

After sometime Henry managed to finally drag himself out of bed. It was a little past noon and he could still hear James snoring in his room and Amanda was still in the same spot she had been when he went to bed. After cleaning himself up a bit and dressing up, Henry strolled to the door. "I'm leaving." Henry said, not even waiting for a reply.

Walking was hard when you were still half asleep Henry realized. As he made his way to Harry's Cafe he almost slammed into a few lamp posts and a street sign here or there. Finally he managed to make it without too much damage to himself. He spotted Rebekah, but first, he needed something to drink. A hot coffee order later and Henry was sitting in front of the girl. "Sup." he said tiredly.

[rebekah]

Rebekah had gone through three cappuccinos while waiting on Henry to arrive, not that she blamed him for being late, because having not told him a time to meet her at, she couldn't say he was late, now could she? Besides the longer he took to arrive, the more time she had to try and figure out what she was going to say to him.

It was all too confusing and Rebekah's head was about to burst in more ways than one. The more confused she got, the more worked up she felt, and the more worked up she felt, the more her power would play tricks on her. She's be sitting somewhere thinking the thoughts and suddenly she'd disappear through the seat she was sitting on.

Thankfully it hadn't done it the whole time she was sitting in the cafe, if it had, she wouldn't have known where to look. When the door opened for what felt like the hundredth time since she had arrived she saw him. When she saw him walking into that shop her heart skipped a beat. Of course they were attending that school together, but in truth Rebekah hadn't been attending it herself. She had just decided she didn't need to go.

When he finally sat down opposite her with a coffee, and asked what was up, in a very abbreviated version, Rebekah looked up and saw how tired he looked. She immediately felt sorry, and guilty for bringing him out. He must have had some bad night or something.

She began to try and get up from the table, "I..I..I'm..." she was struggling to find the right words, what with the heart skipping beats and sitting in her throat. "I woke you, I... sorry, I shouldn't have..." she couldn't cope, and immediately felt the tears stinging at her eyes. Taking her hands up and smudging at her eyes, she was not going to cry in front of him, she promised him she wouldn't, he couldn't cope with it.

"I'm sorry" she managed again, as she bit down on her tongue and composed herself from crying at least.

[henry]

Henry looked at Rebekah as she seemed to be losing her composure. He could tell she was on the verge of tears and that woke him up for sure. "Wow, Bekah, remember what we agreed about." Henry said. He really didn't like it when girls started to cry. It was just so...wrong. "Come on cheer up. I'm awake, see." he said trying to cheer her up.

As soon as she calmed herself Henry told her not to worry about it. "Got nothing to be sorry about. So what's the problem? I haven't seen you at school. That it?" Henry asked her, taking a sip of his drink. The hot beverage burned his tongue, but at least it woke him up.

[rebekah]

She knew he would go mental at her crying, he hated it, she knew that, but she couldn't help herself. But she did manage to stop herself, and smudging at her eyes again, she bit down on her bottom lip before replying.

"I'm sorry, I know, you don't like, I didn't mean to, it's just, oh Henry" she ended up saying with a surrendering sigh. "Everything's just gone so complicated" she added. Even as she began to sit back down again, she still wasn't completely sure about her feelings. For anybody. She knew she liked Henry, he was a good friend and he probably always would be, or at least she hoped, but she couldn't deny the way her heart skipped a beat when she saw him walk into the cafe. What did it mean?

Where to start? What could she tell him, what should she tell him? "It's not just because of school, although not attending has something to do with it she had to admit" as she began to tell what the problem was.

Finally having gained her full composure, she felt like she could continue with her story. "You know that night you met me? I was attacked? Well it happened again, only at my home. You know I live by myself, so it was really scary. Then I met James, you met him at school, I thought it was everything, I thought we were special, we even.." she trailed off at that part, Henry didn't need to know that.

"I've just got so confused, I feel like I don't know anything anymore about myself or about my life, I'm so confused, I keep remembering how close we were that first night, but you're a good friend and I don't want to spoil that, I'm just so confused Henry" The last few words were said in quite a bit of frustration as she took her hands and began pulling at the hair on her head, and as she did so, she felt her powers going into overdrive and she began to phase through her seat. Not even aware she was doing it.

[henry]

Henry had to admit, he didn't expect Rebekah to have anymore problems. When he saw her with her boyfriend on the first day of school, he was slightly jealous. Then again he figured it was only in his nature. He considered it an act of befriending Rebekah first, he should at least get to date her first. However, Henry threw that idea out the window. Rebekah was her own person and she could choose who she dated on her own. He wouldn't make that decision for her.

So he was surprised that Rebekah had feelings for him. Normally he would jump at the chance of a girl coming onto him, but he couldn't with Rebekah. Not when she was like this. She was confused and heart broken. He could tell that much from her. He suddenly saw her start to phase through her chair. Henry reached across the table and grabbed her arm, trying to pull her up.

"Come on Bekah, pull yourself together. Don't start falling through the floor." he told her. "Look, you're just confused. That's alright for a girl who just got dumped." Ok, he wasn't sure if that was true seeing as how he was the dumper most of the time. "It'll turn out alright."

[rebekah]

Rebekah was terribly confused and now she felt terribly guilty for having brought Henry into all of her problems. She should have just sorted it out for herself and left in in peace. Yet she felt she needed someone to talk to. Anybody. And the only person she could think of was of course Henry. Why was she even admitting she had feelings for him? She was probably scaring the hell out of him. This was all so bad an all so wrong.

"I'm really sorry Henry, I shouldn't have brought you into this" she said with a sad smile, at least she wasn't crying, she had promised she would stop and she had, but she couldn't stop being sad.

Next thing she knew he was grabbing her arm and telling her to pull herself together. She hadn't even been aware she was phasing herself. "I didn't even realise I was doing that" she said slowly as she began to try and completely take control of her composure. The last thing she needed was for people to see her using some sort of ability. It would freak them out.

"You're right I am confused, confused about a lot of things, and my emotions are probably questionable right now" she added, trying to explain away her confused feelings. "I don't want to lose you as a friend" she said warmly, because she really didn't. Henry was a good friend, and she wanted that fact to remain. She would simply die if she lost Henry.

"Thing is, I'm not sure he's dumped me as such, he's just not been around as much, actually I guess he has dumped me, or maybe it's me whose dumped him. I'm just not sure about him, I mean I killed that man for attacking me, but I didn't like it. James killed the other man for attacking me and actually enjoyed it I believe, I'm not sure I like that" Rebekah said, trying to explain properly what she was feeling.

The truth was, Rebekah Taylor was a very confused young woman. Yes it's nice to have someone special in your life, but right now, right now she felt like she just needed a good friend and hopefully Henry would be or could be that good friend. In fact the longer she sat here talking to him, trying to sort things out, the more she realised what her feelings for him might be. That of a girl loving a brother. Ridiculous as that may seem, but it's certainly how she felt.

[henry]

"Well I don't want to lose you as a friend either." Henry said sincerely. Rebekah was probably one of the few people he could consider a friend. He didn't let himself make friends that often. Sometimes he'd prefer not making friends at all. It felt safer not people around people. However, through recent events in his life, he was finding it easier to make friends. In fact, he had more friends than he originally thought he would make. Amanda had said he was finally starting to act like a normal kid instead of a total douche.

Now he didn't know what to say about her boyfriend killing someone and actually enjoying it. He didn't know anyone who enjoyed killing people. Well, unless you count those people he read about in books, but they didn't really count now did they? Probably not. "Well maybe it's a good thing you're staying away from him. I mean what if he turned on you or someone else he knows. Wait, he isn't that same guy from school he nearly killed his own brother during recess is he? The psycho with the element powers." Henry commented.

He hadn't been at the actual event, but news sure spread fast. He was still cursing his luck for not seeing the fight. That would have been something to see. "And I hope you wouldn't enjoy killing. That's not normal."

[rebekah]

"I'm really pleased to hear that Henry" Rebekah said softly, when he told her he didn't want to lose her as a friend either. It meant the world to her to know he felt that way. Rebekah didn't really have many friends, she would have to start trying to make more. The only friend she had other than Henry had been James and his brother Bruce in a way, but he had his own life with his girlfriend Carla.

"It probably is a good thing to stay away from him, you're right, and yes it is the same guy from school who almost killed his brother, it's just there is still a guy out there who could come back for me at any time, and I'm scared Henry" Rebekah tried to explain her reasons for having run to him the minute James seemed to have left her to cope on her own.

"You're right, it isn't normal to enjoy killing someone, but I swear he was happy about what he had done. I mean I was glad to feel safe, but..." she trailed off, looking down at her feet. "I feel like he wanted me to maybe join him in some sort of evil path" she continued. There were a lot of reasons for Rebekah to feel confused, and she was feeling them by the bucket load.

[henry]

"Well I never liked the guy anyways. He looked clingy." Henry said, trying to lighten the mood. He really didn't like James. He seemed off. Like he was ready to snap any second. I mean, who beats up their own brother in school? Well, who uses their own power on their own family for that matter. Bad people that's who.

"Look, everything will be fine. I'm glad you came to talk to me. You look more like hell than I do." Henry said, trying to straighten out his hair a bit.

[rebekah]

When Henry said he never liked the guy anyway, and said he was clingy, Rebekah began to laugh. Before she'd have been quite annoyed at having someone say something bad about James because he was so protective of her. Now she realised that protectiveness was also obsessive, and she didn't like that.

"You're right, he was a bit too clingy, probably wouldn't have liked us being friends, and I would have hated if he'd tried to stop us from being friends" Rebekah said with a smile.

However, Rebekah still had to eventually go back to her own apartment and with that one person still on the loose after her, she really didn't want to live by herself. But then Henry broke her thoughts again by telling her everything would be fine. But would it be?

"I'm glad I came to talk to you too, and trust me, I feel like hell" Rebekah said, and then looked down at her feet, "But I'm really not sure everything will be fine, I have to go back to my own apartment, alone, and I really don't want to do that" Rebekah said in a very scared and sad voice. Maybe everything would be fine, maybe Henry was right, but what, just what if it wasn't?

[henry]

Henry thought about it for a moment. Maybe Rebekah would feel safer with someone living with her. Or maybe she'd feel comfortable somewhere where there was an adult watching out for her. He remembered the school had dormitories. He wasn't sure if anyone was using them yet, but he knew some of the teachers did. He was actually thinking of making Amanda move there.

"Well, you could always try to room with someone. The schools got some pretty good dorms. I'm sure you'll find someone to bunk with. Or maybe you can move in with some friends. Hey you know, my cousin's looking for a place to stay, you could room with her." Henry suggested.

Ok, so Amanda wasn't really looking for a place to stay at the moment per say, but she might as well be. He was mind of tired of having her walk in on him while he was walking around in his boxers. Her comments about his choice of boxers weren't helpful either.

[rebekah]

Rebekah smiled as Henry tried to make her feel better about having to be in the apartment on her own. It was really sweet the way he was trying to help her. Unfortunately the dorms at the school were only for the nights they were at the school. What was she to do for the rest of the week. She sighed gently and smiled at him again.

"The school dorms are only for while you're at the school for the three days, I don't really have any friends, other than you, but your cousin, well she doesn't even know me, you're being very kind Henry, but I think I might have to face the fact and just try to be more brave and go back to my own apartment" she explained with a weak smile.

Of course apartment sharing with another female might not be such a bad thing though. But Rebekah couldn't do it with someone she didn't really know, although a relation to Henry had to be a nice person, because Henry was a total sweetheart.

[henry]

"Well offer still stands whenever you want it." Henry said, trying to lighten the mood. He took a sip of his drink before going back to the conversation. "And if anything happens, just call and I'll come running. Or I'll at least have my brother or cousin drive me there. Whatever works." Henry added.

He was disappointed that he couldn't help Rebekah out more. He felt bad that such a sweat girl was having so much trouble in her life. He wanted to help, but he didn't know how. Plus, what if someone was after her. She seemed edgy about going to her place alone.

"Rebekah, why are you afraid of going to your apartment alone?" he wanted to know why she was scared so he'd better have an understanding on how to help her.

[rebekah]

"It's really nice of you to say, maybe if your cousin and I were to meet, it would be lovely to move in with her" Rebekah said softly, smiling, not wanting to brush off Henry's ideas completely. "I might hold you to that" Rebekah said softly when he said if anything happened to call and he'd get his brother or cousin to take him to her.

Then he asked why she was afraid to go back to her apartment alone. She thought she'd told him earlier about what happened in the house, but maybe she hadn't made it clear enough. "Well, the second time I got attacked it was in the apartment Henry, my apartment, it was also where James killed the guy, but the second one got away" she tried explaining again, hoping he would understand why she was so scared to go to her own apartment.

It's not like she was aiming for Henry to become her house mate or something like that, although it wouldn't be something she'd completely rule out. They got on well together, but somehow she didn't think it be something Henry would be comfortable with, and as such, she wouldn't put him in that position to ask him.