Papa Don't Preach {William}

[katie]

27th May, 2009

Katie hadn't really spoken to her brother William properly since she had walked out on him that night all those weeks ago. They had been avoiding each other, and Katie was hating it. She hated the fact she had lost the closeness she had with William. She had never been close to Jason, and now she knew why, he wasn't even related to them. He had been adopted by the Moore's and they had never told any of their kids. Of course she was still close to Zach, but then he was studying in England for the best part of the year, so really William was the only one left whom she could talk to, relate to and her recent behaviour had almost alienated him.

Now she was just over five weeks pregnant, which was the result of the sexual assault on her by Jake. She had hated that night, she had went home scrubbed herself down in the shower, and cried herself to sleep. She knew there was something wrong after a couple of weeks when she hadn't come on. She was petrified, but she didn't think she would be able to speak to William about given everything which had gone wrong recently. So she had told Jason and he had flipped his lid at her. But with him she really hadn't expected anything else. They had never really been that close. That was also the day she had found out Jason wasn't a part of their family, not by blood anyway.

Now, just over five weeks since their massive argument, Katie needed to talk to her brother. She had nobody else to turn to. She had to tell him what happened to her that night, the result of it, and hopefully he wouldn't be too disappointed in her like last time. Hopefully, he would take some sympathy on her, and they might get back some of that closeness they once had. If not, Katie wasn't sure what she was going to do. Maybe given she had no twin left, the only thing she would be able to do would just to end her life and join him. She mentally slapped herself for thinking that though.

She slowly made her way into the living room, she knew William would be there, and she sat down on the sofa, sitting fairly near him, and she sighed gently. She just hoped she would be able to tell him all of this without losing it. She had to try and keep her emotions in check. "William, we really need to talk. I've got something I need to tell you, but before I start, I need you to promise me, that you won't judge me too harshly and that you won't blame me, as I think I'm blaming myself enough for the world." She said in a very low and sad voice.

[william]

It had been seven weeks since William had had that serious talk with Katie. He had hoped that she would have listened to everything he had said. But it looked like she hadn't. It felt to William that all that he said went in one ear and out the other. It just didn't sink in. He still couldn't believe all the things she had done previous to the talk, and he felt sick, just knowing part of what went on after it.

He had to find out from Jason about what mess she had gotten herself into. Of all the thing she had to do, Katie had to get herself pregnant. But that was all that he had heard. William had no idea what had happened, or who the guy was that knocked her up. Just the thought of her being like this made him wonder what he should do. He had always known that he was the one person that Katie could confide in, but lately it felt that he was a million miles away from the person that she would want to talk to.

Though after talking to Debbie, a new person who he might be falling for, he was hoping to resolve any conflict or tension that was between him and Katie. He wanted to talk to her, and find out what had happened since the last time they chatted. Most of all he wanted to get his sister back.

William was lost in thoughts, not really watching the program that was on the tv right then. Then he realised that Katie was sitting on the lounge, with her sitting near him, close enough to make him turn to her. William heard her sigh. He turned to her as she spoke, wanting to keep calm, and listen to what she had to say. When Katie finished, he nodded. "Okay Katie. I promise that I won't do any of what you just mentioned." William felt the palms of his hands begin to sweat slightly. He kind of knew what she wanted to tell him, but he wanted to hear the full story from her.

He heard the sadness in her voice as she spoke, and William wanted to blurt out that he knew what she wanted to tell him. But he had to keep remembering that he wanted to hear it all from her. Turning the tv off, he looked at her, and calmly said, "You have my full attention."

[katie]

Katie was sitting fairly close to William. She wanted to get back the closeness they had, she wanted to get back her brother. But she also knew with what she was about to tell him, he might disown her completely, but she hoped not. William was always the one to talk to, confide in, and she hoped, despite everything over the past few weeks, it would still be the same. She was more or less back to normal as well now.

Her personality was back to pretty much the way it was before Josh's death, and her dress sense was pretty normal too, well as normal as it got for Katie. She was wearing her denims, and a pink fluffy jumper which was actually a little too big for Katie, but she loved it. So there was little skin on show, other than her face. Which probably for William, has been the first time he's seen her like that for a while. She had her hands tucked inside the sleeves of her jumper and her arms were folded over her chest, as she looked at him, and got ready to begin telling him everything from the start.

When he promised not to judge her, and said she had his full attention, she gave him a weak smile. "Before I even tell you anything about what I need to tell you, I want to say how sorry I am for everything I've put you and Jason through, neither of you needed it. But you probably know I took Josh's death really badly, and it had a very bad affect on me." She took in a deep breath, that was the first part over with. Giving an apology and giving the real reason for her bad behaviour.

"I know my behaviour has been shocking, and I wouldn't blame you if you hated me, but I really hope you don't, because I'm going to need you now, more than ever before." She added, and then looked away from him for a few seconds, took in a few deep breaths, keeping her composure, but she turned to him, to continue.

"Jason's probably already told you, but neither of you know the full story, and that's what you need to know. I'm pregnant William, but it's not as clear cut as you think." There, she'd said it, she'd admitted her behaviour was wrong, and she had now admitted to William she was pregnant, but she still had to tell him about the sexual assault which the pregnancy was a result of.

Finally being unable to keep a check of her emotions any longer, she felt the tears stinging at her eyes and beginning to roll down her cheeks. She unfolded her arms and messily wiped away at the tears. She was needless to say, without heavy make-up. "I can assure you, I've learned my lesson the hard way, and I'm so very sorry William. I just want you back in my life, I want to get back what we had. I miss being your baby sister." She said all of that between heavy sobs, and then she knew she couldn't keep it back from him any longer.

"William, I was attacked, that's why I'm pregnant, and it's also why I've not been able to face you for weeks, I'm so ashamed, I feel dirty, and I feel, used, damaged goods, and it's all my own fault." She rambled those last few words out, as the tears were completely consuming her, it would be a wonder if William had understood any of them, but she hoped he had.

[william]

William listened to the apology which Katie was giving him, in regards to everything she had put him and Jason through. After their last heated conversation, William knew deep down that that was hard for Katie to tell him. Looking at what she was wearing, it did confirm what he was thinking. He hadn't seen her wear those sort of clothes for some time. Though over the last few weeks, he had noticed that she hadn't been wearing all the skimpy clothes she had taken on wearing. Deep down he was glad that she seemed to be getting back to what he was used to seeing her in.

William put his hand on Katie's arm, seeing that he wasn't able to hold her hands. "I would never hate you. I honestly didn't approve or like what you were becoming a few weeks ago. I had hoped that you would just grow out of your faze that you were going through, but obviously you didn't. I was worried more than anything of what might happen." He knew what had happened, but he waited for Katie to tell him the story from her own mouth.

He just wanted to blurt out that he infact knew that she was pregnant, and that he would definately be there for her. So when she finally turned back to him, and told him that she was pregnant, and that basically there was more to the story. All William could do was nod and listen more to what she wanted to say.

Then William saw a side of Katie he hadn't seen in some time. Tears were running down her cheeks, and then she wiped them away, sort of. Right then William wanted to just wrap his arms around her, and just tell her that he was there for her. He was, but he wondered if she wanted the same thing. She had pushed him away over the last few weeks, and he didn't know how to resolve the blow up they had. Now it looked like he was going to finally make up with his only sister.

William couldn't hold back anymore. He moved his body close to Katie's, and then wrapped his arms around her, wanting to assure her that everything would be okay from now on. "Katie. I want you back in my life more than ever. You will never lose me as a brother, and I never want to lose you. You are my only sister, and I love having you around here." With that, William brought her into a warm bear hug.

Then Katie continued to talk, so William let go of her, in order for her to speak more to him. Then she told him more of the story to why she was pregnant. William didn't know what to say about what she had told him. He didn't want to feel like this, but he felt his blood boil a little. Not wanting to sound angry in his voice, William tried to calm himself down, and then asked. "It wasn't that Jake guy was it? If it was .... I don't think I would want to see his face around you ever."

He then remembered how Katie described how she felt after the attack, and then wondered. "If it was he who attacked you, did you even go the police about it? I kind of wish that you had come to me straight away, we could have dealt with it together." William looked at her, worried as to what else had happened after that. Did she only get pregnant? Or did she also get anything else from this guy?

[katie]

After Katie had apologised to William for her erratic behaviour over the previous few weeks, she was by now in a total mess with uncontrollable tears rolling down her cheeks. She could only wait to see what William's reaction would be. Thankfully, it was better than she had even dared hoped. She felt his hand on her arm and she looked down it at, feeling the immediate comfort from it resting there. She got even more comfort knowing that he didn't hate her and that he couldn't. She gave him a weak smile when he said that.

Of course he went on to say he hadn't liked what she was becoming a few weeks ago and that he had hoped it was just a phase, unfortunately it hadn't been quite a phase. Well it had, just that it had lasted much longer than it should have, and it was brought to an end in a very tragic, unhealthy way. He added that most of all he had just been worried about what might happen to her. That was the sad thing, if she had stopped to listen to him, then maybe she might not be in the mess she was in already. However, nothing could be done about that now.

She sniffed a few times, "I know, I know, and I should have listened to you, I know that now." She said in a very soft and sad voice. She just wanted the pain to go away, the pain of everything, not the pain of Josh's death, but the pain and memories of the attack. She remembered William telling her at Christmas time when he'd bought her the ruby necklace and bracelet set, which she still had never taken off, that he could do that with his ability. Take away people's painful memories, but she also knew that what he took away from someone, he felt himself for a short time. And that's why she couldn't ask him to do it for her. She had made her own miserable mistake and she had to suffer the consequences of it.

The whole time she had just wanted to lay in his arms, be the baby sister, she had always been with him, but she didn't want to force the issue, because she knew she had hurt him with her behaviour. He had taken it very hard watching his sister act in a way he had never seen her act before. That much she knew. She was a complete mess, with the tears running down her face, as she went from crying to heavy sobbing. That was when she felt him move closer to her. She felt his arms wrap around her, and as he did that, she moved in closer still, and wrapped her arms around his neck and snuggled in, still sobbing her heart out, but listening to what he was saying to her.

The words were comforting to Katie, and she could feel herself begin to relax more being in his arms, as he hugged her, and she kept her arms around his neck. She just kept taking in deep breaths every now and then as she continued to try and compose herself. "You wont lose me William." She said softly, "I know you probably thought you had, and maybe for a while, I thought I was losing myself, but I'm back. It means so much to me to know I've not lost you." She added, between her heavy intakes of breaths and sobs.

When Katie went back into her serious mode to tell William about what happened, he pulled out of the hug, but she kept a hold of one of his hands in her own, for her own comfort of knowing he was there for her, and listening, more than anything else. When she finished telling him what had actually happened to her, she could see the anger build within him. She hadn't really expected anything else. Then he asked if it was Jake. She began to shake then, and backed away into the corner of the sofa, and put her hands up to cover her face. Just the mention of his name brought it all back to her.

"I said no William, I said no, so many times. But he was too strong for me, I couldn't get awa...." But she couldn't say any more, she just sat there, rocking back and forth, as she started crying heavily again. Which was amazing, she didn't think she had any tears left to cry. She was wrong. Then he began asking more questions about if it was him, and she just continued to shake, as he mentioned police. She looked up at him then, fear etched on her face, "I...I.... wanted to so much, but... but with everything... I just... I didn't... oh William, I'm so really sorry, I'm in such a mess and it's my own fault." She just went back to rocking back and forth, and hugging herself, but every time she closed her eyes, she saw his face and as she saw his face, she screamed out "NO!"

[william]

William hated to hear that was he had said sounded like he was just telling her what she should have done, but it was the truth. But after her saying that she knew she should have listened to him, William wanted to just sit there with her, reassuring her. He didn't want to come off as a hard father figure, but she was only young, and he knew that she had to learn harsh life lessons, but this was ridiculas. This one seemed to have bit her in the ass big time.

While Katie was in his arms, he felt her sobbing so hard, it was breaking his heart. He just wanted to keep her safe, right here in his arms. He had hoped what he was saying to her was sinking in somehow. When she said that he would never lose her, William had to smile. That was comforting to know. Just the thought of not having a sister around made him shudder a little. "That's good to hear, as I don't know who I would boss around if you weren't here." William let out a little laugh, nothing too drastic, as the time and mood was not made for a laughing session.

William felt Katie put a hand in one of his, as she spoke about what actually happened that night. William had a thought of who it could have been who was involved, and when he asked Katie, she began to visibly shake, let go of his hand, and back off into the corner of the sofa. Her hands were covering her face. That was just prove that he was right. He hoped that he wasn't, but the name from their last conversation just seemed to fit for some reason.

Then Katie went on to say what she said, and what he did to her. William didn't know how to react to this new behaviour that Katie was demonstrating in front of him. She was rocking back and forth in the corner of the sofa, and tears were flowing heavily again. William obviously wondered if she had contacted the police. In his eyes, it was rape, plain and simple. This guy should be tracked down, and brought into the police. He shouldn't be roaming the street, tricking young girls to have sex.

William was going to continue with his thoughts on the matter, when Katie replied, saying she wanted to contact the police, but she didn't. William was getting really angry now. Not at Katie, he was mainly disappointed in her, but angry at this Jake guy. He so wanted to just get out of the apartment, and go on the streets to find this Jake guy. William wouldn't have thought about time, as it was not on anyone's side anymore. He just wanted this guy right where he wanted him, and then William would give him a piece of his mind.

But William knew he couldn't leave, not with the way Katie was. After she spoke, Katie went back to rocking back and forth, hugging herself. This was doing some psychological damage to her, and William wondered if he should suggest taking away the memory altogether. No, he didn't know if he wanted to do that, as he knew that whatever she had gone through, he would feel, and William didn't know if he was prepared for that.

Then all of a sudden Katie screamed out 'no'. William soon snapped out of what he was thinking, and went right over to her, hugging her with all of his might. "Katie, sweetie, I am here. We will figure this out, okay! Don't get all stressed. You have told me everything now. You need to remember that you are now carrying a child, and the stress won't do it any good." William didn't like the fact that his baby sister was pregnant, but he didn't want her to lose it over this incident. They would certainly deal with it all ... together.

Why did this have to happen to his baby sister? His only sister? Who knew, but boy was William very angry with the person mainly who was also involved.

[katie]

When William had made a light hearted joke about not having anyone to boss around if he lost her, Katie laughed back a little to. What else could she have done? It was a terrible thing she was having to tell her brother, given the emotion of this conversation, but she had to laugh, because it was funny, if looked beyond everything else. It felt good to be close to her older brother again. Now, she just had to get Jason back on track with her, even though he had made it clear he was completely disgusted with her and on top of that he wasn't even blood related to them.

After Katie had told William about what happened to her, and he had mentioned his name, she had backed into the corner of the sofa, rocking back and forth and sobbing her heart out. She just wanted it to all go away. She had been having nightmares about it since it had happened, but she hadn't gone to William about it, because she wasn't sure how he would react to her, react to what had happened. So she had kept quiet and continued to suffer alone.

But now, now that William seemed to be sort of okay with the news, maybe she wouldn't have to suffer the nightmares alone anymore. She could talk to him about them. Not that he would be able to stop them of course, not unless he, but no, she couldn't think about that. She looked up at him from where she was cowering in the corner of the sofa, "Nightmares William, nightmares, every night since it happened, over, and over. Every time I close my eyes he's there, I see his face." She said between her sobs, as she hung her head back down again and went back to the rocking back and forth mode.

When she screamed out 'NO' William was there instantly hugging her tightly. So tightly she didn't think he would let her go, and if it wasn't for the fact, she had been hugging herself as she rocked back and forth she would have put her arms right around him again, but she couldn't. As he spoke to her, she did manage to try and calm down again, but it wasn't easy. All she could think about was what happened that night, and she kept seeing his face, over and over again, looking so smug.

"You know... I... I .... thought...." she was struggling to speak between her sobs, "about... having an abortion..." another deep intake of breath, "but I then realised, it's not the baby's fault is it?" She finally managed to say between the sobbing, but still feeling like she wanted to rock back and forth, but with William's arms around her strongly she couldn't do it, and in a way she was grateful he was holding her so tightly.

"I just... I... just want it to all..." She struggled with her words again, breathing in deeply before continuing, "I just wished it could leave me, I wished... I wished it had never happened, I wished...Josh had never died." And with that she went back into a state of sobs, "I miss him so much." It was true, of course she had William, and she was as close to him as she had been to Josh, but Josh was her twin, she felt like a part of her was missing now he was gone. A part of her she'd never get back and that's when she knew if she had a boy she was going to name him after her brother. Alan Joshua, AJ. Then maybe, just maybe, Josh would live on in her own child.

[william]

William didn't want to know that Katie was having nightmares. Just thinking about her dealing with her demons every single night in her mind was devastating to him. He wished that she had come to him sooner, and he could have helped her overcome all of this. Though instead she dealt with it on her own. He didn't know if that was healthy or not for her, but looked it had done a bit of psychological damage, which he hoped to help her repair, over time.

After a few moments, William heard Katie begin to speak. She mentioned that she was thinking of having an abortion. William was going to try and talk her out of that idea, but then Katie continued on with that she was then thinking of the baby, and how it wasn't its fault. William let go of Katie then, wanting to look at her when he spoke. Though he kept one hand on Katie's arm, stroking it slowly. "I am glad that you didn't go through with it Katie. I don't know what we would have said if we had found out that you had done that. But I know that I am glad that you kept it. I will definately be there to help out wherever I can."

William hoped that his reassurance had helped her keep that decision in tacked for now. He wondered how Jason was doing with the news, and wondered if he had calmed down any over it all. William knew that he was the Vice President and all, but really, he should also supporting his family, even if it wasn't his biological family. That shouldn't matter.

Katie began to talk again, wanting all that had happened, hadn't actually happened at all. Then she said that she wished that Josh had never tied. Again Katie began to sob uncontrollably. All William could do was gesture for Katie to come over to where he was, and he then put an arm around her, and then gave her a big hug. He hated to see her so sad. William too missed Josh, but he couldn't imagine how much it had hurt for Katie, what with him being her twin and all. "I miss him too Katie, I do. All I can say is that if he was here, I am sure he would be doing what I am doing right now. We would both be here for you right now. Just know that he is probably looking down on us all."

William held Katie for some time, just trying to protect her, and reassure her that he was truly there for her right now, and for always. He was deep down still disappointed with her, but knew that was the least of his worries right now. William was infact going to help his sister along the way with all of this, even if it killed him. She was much to important to lose again.

[katie]

When Katie had said she had thought about an abortion but changed her mind after realising that it wasn't the baby's fault, she was glad to see William support her in that decision, although she had a feeling he would have. She wasn't daft though, she knew he would still be disappointed in her with everything that had happened. After all, if she had paid attention to what he had told her in the first place, then she might not be pregnant now. But she was, and she had to live with the consequences. They all did.

"I'm glad that you're happy with the decision that I made. It wasn't just thinking that it wasn't the baby's fault, another thought had gone through my head at the time." She said, giving her reasons for not going ahead with an abortion. She was still speaking through tears, but not heavy sobs like before. Or at least, it was sporadic, she would be feeling calm enough to talk one moment, and then crying heavy tears the next.

"I was thinking, that if I had a boy..." She trailed off, taking in a deep breath, because she knew she would get upset again just thinking about it, "...that if I had a boy, I would like to call him Alan Joshua, AJ, after Josh. Made me think that maybe he might live on in my own son. I know, it's daft, because I might not even have a boy, but well, you know." She said, waffling on a little, as the tears threatened to consume her once more.

"I'm also glad that you will be here to help me and support me." She added, as she could feel herself begin to calm down again from the inside, but still crying. Everything was getting to her, especially the nightmares and the fact that every time she closed her eyes, she could see Jake's face. When Katie had said she wished that none of it had happened, and that Josh hadn't died, William opened his arms and gestured for her to come closer to him. So she did, and that's when William hugged her again. She immediately put her arms around him too, holding onto him, like she was scared if she let go, he'd leave and never come back again, which she knew was ridiculous, he'd never do that to her. After all, with everything she had put him through over the past few weeks, he was still here for her now.

William's words about Josh were comforting and she found that it did calm her down a little. With all the tears she had cried over the past few weeks, it was a wonder she had any left, but her eyes were very sore. She could hardly touch them, they were so painful. "I know you miss him too." She said between her tears, and then what he said after, that if Josh was here now, he'd be doing the same thing. But if Josh was here right now, she'd not be in this mess. "You're right, I know you're right, but if Josh was here, I probably wouldn't be in this mess right now. But I'm not blaming Josh, I blame myself, I'm the only one to blame here. I know that." Katie said and then as she hugged into William more, she tried closing her eyes again.

She hadn't slept properly for weeks, nor had she been eating properly either, which wasn't good for the baby, she knew that, but keeping everything bottled up inside, made her feel so ill, she couldn't face food. Her stomach then let out a massive growl at that point, but she wasn't sure she wanted food still. She just didn't think she could face it. But her eyes were only closed for seconds, before his face came into focus again, and she opened her eyes and sat upright, fear etched across her face.

"I can't stand this William, I've not slept properly for weeks, because I have constant nightmares and every time I try to close my eyes, even with you here, he's there. I've not eaten properly either, I just don't feel like it. I just want it to go away, it's killing me from the inside." Katie explained and then she sighed, desperate not to cry again.

"I read somewhere, that facing your fears can often stop them, maybe I need to confront him again, maybe it's what I need to get him out of my system?" She asked, not sure why she was saying it, because when she'd read that about rape victims, she thought it was ludicrous they would want to face their attacker again, but given what she had been through herself recently, she was beginning to wonder if it might be a good idea. Because she wanted the nightmares to stop, the painful memories gone, but she didn't want to ask William to do it, because she didn't want to put him through what she had gone through.

[william]

William listened to the other reason that Katie decided to keep the baby. Just hearing her say Josh's name again, and stating that it would be used in the name for the baby, felt right to William. He hadn't really thought about it himself, but now after her saying it, he knew it meant something to Katie. She infact was twins with Josh, so it made sense. "Katie. I hope that you do have a boy, so you can use Josh's name. It would be great." William meant it, knowing that the name she chose now would definately be used.

When William pulled Katie into him, he felt her arms go around his own body. It felt nice just to sit there and make her feel safe for once, since she hadn't seemed like she had been for the last few weeks. After William spoke about Josh, Katie came back a few seconds later with a reply. Just hearing her say that if Josh was here, none of what had happened would have happen, William wanted to agree with, but decided to shut his mouth. He knew that she didn't want to here about what he thought again. William new that the silence would be better than anything else.

After a while, Katie moved away from William and sat up, facing him. She spoke about not sleeping for weeks, and not eating properly. William looked at Katie, feeling so sorry for her. Mainly feeling sorry because she had been through so much on her own. "Katie, from now on you will hopefully sleep and eat better. As for the nightmares, I hope that they do subside. But with everything that you have been through, I am not sure. I hope that knowing that I know exactly what happened will help them somehow."

Then Katie spoke about reading somewhere about if you face your fears, that the nightmares will stop. He knew that he could help her, but he wasn't sure if he really wanted to be put through what she had. Though for him, the only positive thing that would come out of it, would be to see her attackers face. Maybe. But maybe not.

Then William wondered how they would go about confronting this Jake person. "Katie. If you were to do that, how would you try and track him down? This is a big city. Though..." William had an idea. "What about we contact Jason. He might have some contacts. For all we know this guy might have a track record." With that, William picked up the phone, and began to dial Jason's number.

[katie]

Katie could only smile when William said he hoped she had a boy so she could use Josh's name in the baby's name. It meant so much to hear him say that to her. She knew she had went through hell physically, but she had put her family through it mentally. So, having his support, really did mean the world to her. Now, if she could only get Jason's support, she had it pretty much made. "I'm glad you approve William, it means a lot to me." She replied, and then just for the hell of it, she decided to apologise again. "I know we're back on track, and I know deep down you'll be disappointed in my past behaviour and I don't blame you, but I really, really am sorry." Maybe there was no need for her to apologise again, but she felt she had to, and doing it, made her feel a little better.

When William hugged her and she hugged him back, staying in his embrace, she felt the safest she had ever felt for quite some time. Maybe, she should have been thinking about getting an apartment of her own, especially with the baby on the way now, but she didn't want to. She didn't want to be in an apartment by herself, what would happen if he ever found her? She then began to wonder if she'd ever get a new man in her life? What man wanted a pregnant girlfriend? Then again, maybe when they knew the circumstances of the pregnancy, they'd feel sorry for her or something? Who knew really.

After Katie had told him about not sleeping properly for weeks due to the nightmares and not eating properly either, William suggested that she might start sleeping and eating better, now that she had told him the truth. Maybe it would, maybe it wouldn't. Only time would tell that really. But she certainly hoped it would make a difference. She gave him a smile, probably one of the most normal ones she had given him since the conversation had started. "Yeah, maybe. I hope so. I've been dreading telling you, and now I have, I already feel somewhat better." She replied, and she did mean it.

She knew she was going to have to start eating properly soon, because if she wanted this baby, and she did, now, she would have to keep it nourished as well as herself. As for the nightmares, who knew really. Maybe they would stop, maybe they wouldn't. "It's going to sound really crazy, I know, but, if they don't stop, the nightmares, if I wake up with another one, can I come through and sleep in your room with you?" Katie asked this, because Katie had a fold away bed in her room for any friends who might have happened to stay over when she was younger in their parents home, and when she'd moved into the apartment with William, she'd brought it with her. "I just know if I take another one, I don't want to be alone." She added and gave him another smile.

Her eyes were so sore now, she really didn't think she'd cry anymore now that they had finally seemingly stopped. After she had voiced her opinion about facing her fears and confronting Jake, William mentioned about getting Jason involved, because he wondered how she would be able to track down Jake. "You can try calling Jason, although, last time we spoke, I didn't get to to tell him the truth and he yelled at me, and he stormed out." But maybe, this was the chance to get back on track with her oldest brother. Maybe if he knew the truth, the real truth, he wouldn't be so hard on her.

[jason]

It was May 27th and it was the second week of his vacation. He had been meeting with his biological parents and was having a good time with them. It was just amazing how the two people could be and that they were sorry for sending him away. However they asked about his adopted family and how that family was different from theirs and it was just pleasant. Nevertheless Jason had a decision to make and he was just wondering to himself if he should leave his adopted family and just make contact with his biological. However it didn’t seem like him, no matter how he wanted to he didn’t want to leave his adopted family in the dark.

He knew that family his entire life and didn’t want to give up on them. He wanted to apologize to Katie about his storming off and just leaving her when they last spoke earlier this month. He had nightmares about it and just thought that perhaps he should explain his motive and situation to her. She probably wouldn’t understand and all he wanted to do was just not be mad at his other family anymore. He was just in an awkward situation and he didn’t know what to do.

He decided that after spending the last week with his biological family in Indiana that it was time for him to just apologize to his sister and admit to her that it wasn’t her fault and that she should keep the baby and that how he reacted was stupid. It was certainly out of stupidity and he didn’t want the media to badger him with insane questions anymore. So this was going to be good press thing for him. He wasn’t going to have a press conference about this incident. He just wanted this to keep quiet and needed something else. He hated having bad press and he needed to get his emotions straight and not wacked as it seemed to him.

Jason was in New York and was going to the apartment where Katie was living at now. It was the same apartment that his brother, William was living in. He knew that Katie had moved out of the other apartment because of not wanting to even look at the same apartment because of her brother – her twin brother had died. He didn’t even blame her he wouldn’t want to live in the same place after being close with a brother that shared the same womb as her. It was just weird and he didn’t give any shame in her for choosing to do that. People had to make choices and that was her choice.

As he approached the door to the apartment his phone began to ring and he was beginning to hope that it wasn’t Evan. Evan his biological brother had been driving him crazy trying to get him on that insane show of his and it was annoying him. However when he read the caller idea it was ‘William’ now that was a name that rarely called him. However he decided that he didn’t need to answer. He was just going to knock on the door, ignoring the phone call. Face to face was better than over the phone – he guessed.

[william]

William looked at Katie, listening to her suggestion about if the nightmares started up again. He smiled at her, "Of cause you can kiddo. My bed is big enough for you to climb into. Never feel that you can't come in. Unless, you know, I have someone over at that time." William had to smirk at that comment. Why was he thinking of a certain someone, who he had only met a couple of days ago.

William didn't like the sound of what Katie said. He wondered what really went on between her and Jason last time. Though he knew that Jason could get a bit heated in his conversations, but William also knew that he was also very busy, what with being vice president and all. "Maybe this is the time to tell him the truth." William dialled the number.

As William waited for Jason to pick up the phone, he smiled at Katie. "It's ringing." Then a few seconds went past, and nothing. Then William heard a click, and Jason's voicemail started up. Putting the phone back on the table, he again spoke to Katie. "It looks like our brother is not answering the phone, or just screening his calls. Who knows." William hoped that he was just not answering due to being busy. He hoped it was the other thing.

[katie]

When Katie had asked William if she could come into his room if she ever had any nightmares and didn't want to be alone, William had said of course she could, and he even called her kiddo. She loved when he did that, and she felt as if maybe, finally, they were indeed getting back on track. He did of course, mention, unless he had someone in the bed with him. Even Katie had to crack a smile at that one. "Thanks William, but don't worry, I wouldn't crowd you." She then poked her tongue out at him in a joking way. Yes, maybe Katie was finally beginning to heal her wounds, who knew.

She waited while William called Jason, but he eventually put the phone back on the table saying he hadn't answered. Katie wondered if it was because he was trying to avoid her, avoid them, avoid the issue, but she also knew that he was very busy, and she then realised that maybe that had a lot to do with his reaction last time. "Well, he does need to know the truth." Katie replied, and gave William a smile.

"Maybe he is just busy, or maybe, maybe he has just had enough of his 'adopted family'." Katie said in a slightly sad voice, she realised she could no longer be bitter with him. Just at that point however, she heard a knock at the door. She looked at William with a raised eyebrow. "Maybe he just decided to come on over?" She suggested, "I'll get it." She added, and then went to the door and opened it, and sure enough, there was Jason. She wasn't sure what to do, because of the last time, but seeing him there, her other older brother, her oldest brother, she just began to crack again.

Just when she thought she couldn't cry anymore. "Oh Jason, Jason, I am so very sorry for everything, really I am, but, but, you, you, really need to know the truth." She said through her tears, and then she threw her arms around him in a hug, as she dragged him into the apartment and kicked the door closed. She then pulled out of the hug, and sat down on the sofa curled up next to William.

"Not even sure to know where to begin, I'm exhausted, after telling it all to William." She said, and then took in a deep breath before continuing, wiping at her eyes again. "The short of it is, I didn't get pregnant through consent, I was raped." Then she just broke into tears again. She sat beside William because he was the first one she broke it to, and somehow, she still wasn't sure how Jason was going to be with her, or react to what she had just told him, so she felt safer sitting next to William, if Jason wanted to come over and calm her, hug her, soothe her, whatever, then he could come and get her.

[jason]

Jason waited for the door to open. He certainly hoped that they were home. He was about to go back to his phone and call William, but he decided to give it a minute and all of sudden the door opened and it was Katie. He smiled a bit as she started to cry. He didn’t say anything as he let her throw her arms around him dragging him into the apartment. It was nice to see someone do that...Okay, it was better than having Evan do it.

Jason let Katie do her thing and gave a weak smile at William as the two were curled up on the sofa. He then sat across from them wondering what the hell he should say. However he was just speechless he was just giving the silent treatment seeing how they rarely talked. He did have a job to do but he was off and he was trying his best not to say a word. He just was glad to see his adopted family and that is all that mattered to him at this particular time.

He then raised an eyebrow as his little sister informed him of their last conversation. The one in which he bragged out of because he was just so frustrated with it. He regretted that day and had nightmares about it. It was worse than the dreams he normally had. He frowned as she spoke about it. His little sister was raped. He just blinked – not sure what to say about his reaction. Reaction was a big thing and he just couldn’t react to it. He was just in shock.

He took a deep breath as he tried not getting upset at this newfound news. His emotions were finally taking in as his hands were made into fists and he just hit the top of his legs with his anger. He couldn’t this would happen to his sister. His only sister. That wasn’t right and he hated that someone had to abuse his sister like that. What the hell was this world coming too? He got up from where he was sitting and went to where William and Katie were sitting.

He then sat on the opposite side of Katie and placed his hand over her neck and rubbed her shoulder gentle trying to calm her down. “It’s okay, shit happens and I forgive you, I’m sorry that I didn’t understand the circumstances when we last spoke, I was just so angry that I just left” he said as he bit his lower lip, “Do you know the asshole who did this because he is going to pay, that son of a bitch”