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Post by Anastacia Potter on Aug 22, 2010 2:55:44 GMT -5
Stacey continued to listen to what Dom had to say about how the memory came back, nodding, understanding what he was saying. She looked at Dom right in the eyes. "I haven't met Sam, but I feel that by what you have told me about him that he will be somehow understanding... hopefully. If he knows the full story then I am sure that he will settle down on doing anything that might harm you, or remind you of what happened to you." She hoped what she was saying was the truth, or she was going to look an idiot.
After Stacey had said that Sam was probably in there wondering why Dom had left him in the heat of the moment, Dom acknowledged this. Seeing her best friend hang his head, made her just swallow a little, and wonder what could be said to help him in this situation. Stacey soon asked Dom if he was good to go in now, saying that she could come in with him. Dom soon nodded, saying he guessed so, and that he needed to tell him. Stacey knew that for a fact. If he didn't, she didn't know what would happen to his relationship with Sam. Then Dom commented that he knew that he needed to tell his family too. "Dom. One step at a time, okay?"
Stacey soon followed Dom as he got up, and took his hands that he offered. She dusted her pants off, and put her arm around Dom, after he had done that to her. The walk towards the house was slow, but she knew that Dom was going to have to tell Sam everything, especially when she could tell that he loved Sam with everything that he had. Stacey also knew that Dom wouldn't want to leave the next morning, knowing that he hadn't said a word to his lover.
{ooc - I will see what I can do with Sam's post now. And I can image that he might say that, if Sam storms out of the room with what he has to day... if he does. Or just say it when you feel it is the right time. I have no idea how Sam is going to react in all honesty.}
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Post by Samuel Carhill on Aug 22, 2010 3:19:02 GMT -5
Sam kept glancing at the clock on the bedside table, and knew the minutes were ticking away. Time he was losing, time he could have been spending wrapped int Dom's arms, and feeling himself inside him. But now that moment had long gone, and he didn't know what had happened between them. One minute they were on the verge of making love, and the next thing he knew he was alone meer steps away from the bed they share.
Sam sighed, and wondered what he should do. Should he go and look for Dom? He had head a door shut, but didn't hear anything else. He wondered how far away Dom was, and just thought of how quickly Dom had left him. He hadn't meant to push him into the wall, but he so wanted to just take Dom there and then. Sam loved Dom so much, he felt like now his heart was literally breaking, and he then left the bedroom, and slowly headed out to the lounge room.
Sam slowly sat down in the lounge, then laid down, curling himself up, and just stared at the blank television. His mind went to what happened again, and knew that if he didn't see Dom soon, he knew that he wouldn't see him for a whole week. Then a single tear fell from his eyes, and this just started off Sam getting so upset. Sam covered his face with his hands, and began to cry.
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Post by Dominic Salvatore on Aug 22, 2010 15:37:44 GMT -5
{ooc - I'll just play it by ear as to what Sam does then - it might end up being that this thread won't be the right one for it after all lol}
As Dom had continued to tell Stace about how he was feeling about what had happened explaining that it was really the whole being pushed into the wall that set him off she replied saying that from what he had said about Sam she hoped that he would be somehow understanding and hopefully settle down on doing anything which would hurt Dom or remind him of what happened. Knowing Sam as well as he did even in the short space of time they had been together he could see some truth in what Stace was saying. He nodded his slowly, “Obviously I don’t know how he will take it Stace sugar, but I think I know him well enough to know that he wouldn’t let this destroy us, I hope not anyway.” He could and would expect Sam to be upset that he had ran out on him in the heat of the moment and he could and would expect him to be a bit annoyed that Dom hadn’t been honest about it in the first place but he honestly couldn’t see it splitting them up. After all the best couples had their ups and down, this would just be one of their downs which he hoped they could get over before he had to leave in the morning. He didn’t want to leave Sam with this huge cloud hanging over their heads.
When Dom had made the comment that he really ought to tell his family as well, even though he had this feeling that he would never be able to tell them Stace spoke saying for him to take it one step at a time. He looked at her with a sad face then, “If I even manage to tell them, it took long enough for me to tell you and Sam should have been told way before now, but you’re right I guess, one step at a time.” He sighed and then looked away from her again feeling like crap and wishing that this had never happened to him. Even though he knew it wasn’t his fault it didn’t stop Dom from feeling dirty every time the topic was brought up, he felt like damaged goods himself and so he began to wonder if that’s how Sam would see him too. He needed to move on from this; hopefully he could do that with Sam’s help. Then a thought struck him, “You know Stace maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad idea for me to talk to your David about this.” Even when David had spoken to Dom that one off time before about his need to have someone in his life he had never brought up the assault with David, maybe it was time he spoke to someone who could deal with emotional situations and stress.
After Dom had agreed to go in and talk to Sam he had stood up and held his hands out for Stace to take to help her up and Dom wrapped an arm around Stace’s waist and he soon felt Stace put an arm around him and then with his head gently resting on hers he began to walk with her back into his house slowly. Obviously Dom had no idea where Sam would be now in the house, he had left him in the bedroom but would he still be there? Dom had left the house from the back door which led right into his garden and his swimming pool to the other side so he took Stace into the house through the back door also. Soon enough they were inside and from the conservatory it led into the lounge room and that’s when he saw Sam on the sofa all the emotion he felt from before came flooding back to him tenfold and he began to cry too. He turned to Stace with his thumb against his lips “I can’t believe I done this to him.” He said in barely an audible voice but clear enough that Stace would probably hear.
He then made his way over to the sofa slowly and not even daring to touch him as he didn’t know how he would react he sighed and in as clear a voice as possible given that he was also in tears he said, “Sam ... my darling ... I’m sorry ... there’s something ... you should ... know.” He managed to say that much before crumbling onto a heap on the carpet in front of the sofa and then turned to Stace and slowly shook his head knowing that once Sam said something to him, if he even did, that the next words to come out of Dom’s mouth were going to the hardest words he would have ever have said to Sam.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Aug 23, 2010 22:18:59 GMT -5
Stacey listened to what Dom said about he didn't know how Sam was going to take it. She could understand that. Something like this would be hard to take from anyone that was close to you, no matter it being your partner who you loved. It had come across as being hard enough to tell her about it, let alone now telling Sam. "Well just know that whatever happens, I am there, okay?" She gave him a reassuring smile, and then wondered how Sam was going to react.
After they both spoke about taking it one step at a time, first telling Sam then maybe telling his parents, Dom then said that it wouldn't be such a bad idea to talk to David about it. She tilted her head to think, then instantly nodded. "It might be a good idea. He might be able to give you some pointers, or suggestions on how to maybe tell your parents." She knew in a way it might help. Stacey wondered how David was going to take her knowing what happened, and hoped that she was doing okay with it. She was sad for her friend for what happened, but it hadn't affected her daily running of her life, but she knew that she was always there for Dom if he needed to talk about it.
They soon made their way into the house, and Stacey let Dom just lead them both inside, as she had no idea where Sam would be now. She followed him through the conservatory, which then led into the lounge room. Stacey saw a body on the lounge, guessing it was Sam. She then looked at Dom, who was now crying again. Stacey pulled him a little closer with her arm, giving his body a bit of a squeeze, and Dom then spoke. She looked at him, and didn't know what to say. Stacey slowly moved her arm from around Dom, and let him work it out with Sam, telling him what happened.
Stacey put her hands together, placing them in front of her mouth, hoping and praying that it will be okay for Dom. Hoping that Sam's reaction wouldn't be too much for Dom to handle.
{ooc - I will let Sam and Dom talk in a few post, and Stacey will post when it is necessary.}
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Post by Samuel Carhill on Aug 24, 2010 4:48:22 GMT -5
Sam laid there on the lounge, curled up, and now crying into his hands that were covering his face. He wanted to know and understand why Dom had left him in the heat of the moment like that, and he wanted to know before he left in the morning. If Sam didn't find out, and he was left all alone for a week, who know what might happen. He didn't want to lose Dom, but he didn't not want to talk to him for that long.
Through his tears, Sam heard some footsteps, but that didn't stop him from crying. He couldn't bare to remove his hands just yet. If it was not Dom, then he didn't know what he would do or say if they saw him like this. Though really, there was no one else that could be in the house. Then Sam heard Dom's voice, which made him gasp a little, but still the tears kept coming, though felt harder than before. Hearing him speak to him, through his own tears, Sam just couldn't bare to hear his lover crying as well. Whatever it was, it was evident that Dom was a complete mess. Sam hoped whatever was wrong he could fix it.
Then it was quiet, except for the both of them crying their eyes out. Sam willed himself to remove his hands, and he saw Dom on the floor, just there in a heap on the carpet. He slowly sat up as much as he could on the lounge, and moved forward to touch Dom, but then he saw a woman nearby, who he just glanced at, but at that point in time, he was more worried about Dom. Sam wrapped his arms around Dom, and felt fresh tears sting in his sore eyes. "I am so sorry for whatever I did. I will understand if you want me to go." He didn't know whether he should just get up and go now, but somehow his arms felt like they just belonged where they were right at that moment.
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Post by Dominic Salvatore on Aug 24, 2010 15:19:25 GMT -5
{ooc - I may have given something for Stace to respond to - but if you feel she doesn't have to, it's fine.}
When Dom had told Stace he didn’t know how Sam would take it but hoped that he knew Sam well enough to know that he wouldn’t let it destroy them Stace replied saying that whatever happens she would be there. He nodded his head in acknowledgement and gave her a weak smile. He was so glad he contacted her now it was most definitely the kind of thing that he needed her there for. “Thanks Stace sugar and I appreciate it I hope you know that sister.” He replied and then gave her a slightly warmer smile. However Sam would react over it all Dom was about to find out soon.
When Dom mentioned about it not being such a bad idea to maybe talk to David about his feelings he saw Stace tilt her head to the side and then she nodded more or less agreeing with him saying he might be able to give him pointers on how to tell his parents. He nodded his head a little, “Maybe Stace, although I was talking about speaking to him more about how it still affects me. I’ve never seen anyone about it before as I had kept the whole thing to myself. If I had seen someone about it before now maybe Sam doing what he did wouldn’t have had that impact on me you know?” He shrugged slightly because really he didn’t know himself. Maybe he would still have acted the same, but right now he was guessing that he would never know.
Dom had then continued to lead the two of them into the lounge from the conservatory and was soon met with the sight of Sam curled up onto the sofa and it was obvious to Dom and probably to Stace that Sam was in a bit of a mess over Dom running out on him the way he had. When Dom had began to cry again seeing Sam in the mess that he was in he felt Stace give him a bit of a squeeze with the arm that was around him and then he said to Stace that he couldn’t believe he had done that to Sam. Stace had no words for him but he felt her drop her arm and he made his way over to where Sam was and began to speak telling him that he was sorry and that there was something he should know. The sentence was spoken in broken words.
He did hear a slight gasp coming from Sam and this made Dom all the more upset. If only he had told Sam the truth from the start, this wouldn’t have happened today. Dom had collapsed onto the carpet in a bit of heap after he had spoken those words to Sam and just cried heavily. That was all the two of them did for a short time and then Dom felt Sam move slightly. Soon after he felt Sam’s arms go around him and Dom couldn’t help but to put his hands up onto Sam’s arms almost as if he was trying to keep them there. Then Sam spoke saying he was so sorry for whatever he did and he would understand if he wanted him to go. Hell he didn’t want that, he tightened the grip of his hands around Sam’s arms. Then took in a few deep breaths to compose himself so he could talk to Sam and then slowly lifted his head up.
“I ... I ... I don’t want you to go Sam, I can’t live without you.” He sighed gently and then took another quick glance at Stace almost as if he was looking for her approval to continue as if that was even required. He then turned back to Sam, “You ... you ... didn’t do anything wrong my darling, not really. I am the one who did something wrong.” He continued finding himself slowly getting stronger and able to string his words together better now. “I should have told you this the soon as we had agreed to enter a relationship, but, I’ve never been able to tell anyone other than Stace and that’s why she’s here right now, and even she only found out a few weeks ago.” He stopped and took in another deep breath knowing that if he didn’t say it now he probably never would.
“Before I tell you I want you to know that I don’t believe for one minute you are like him and I don’t believe for one minute you would have hurt me, just understand that the memory was so vividly clear. The reason I acted the way I did when you pushed me into the wall my darling, was because my ex partner raped me. And as you pushed me into the wall all I could see was Simon and what he did to me. So you see that song that got you so upset that day my darling, that’s the true meaning behind it. And I am so sorry, I should never have kept this from you for so long but I just, I just couldn’t find the words, telling Stace was hard enough believe me.” With that Dom continued to hold onto Sam’s arms for fear of him running out on him but knowing that if he struggled to get up, he would let him go, after all he ran out on him and so he couldn’t stop Sam from running out on him now if that’s what he wanted to do.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Aug 25, 2010 4:17:16 GMT -5
When Stacey had spoken to Dom, saying that David might be able to give him pointers on how to tell his parents about what happened, Dom said maybe. He then told her what he wanted to talk to David about. Why Stacey didn't think of that she didn't know. But what he said made sense. "Well whatever you talk to David about will hopefully help you, Dom. We are all here for you, okay?" Stacey knew that seeing David for that month had definately helped her with all the shit she had been through. She was glad that she had taken Debbie's advice and gone to see someone. Luckily that someone was David.
As Stacey stood there, keeping out of the way of the two of them, she saw Sam glance in her direction, after Dom spoke to him, and moved slightly so that she was not in the eyeline of them. She didn't want to interrupt what they were trying to do, or what Dom was trying to do, which was explain why he had acted the way he did. Stacey looked around where she was, seeing that the place hadn't changed much since she last visted Dom. Actually this was the second time she had visited Dom's place.
In the corner of her eyes, Stacey watched as Sam moved to Dom, who spoke, putting his arms around Dom. She heard what he said, then heard what Dom said to Sam. Dom looked at Stacey, and she slowly nodded her head, hoping and willing him to go on. He did, so she stood, and hoped that what he said didn't make Sam run off, hopefully stay to give Dom the much needed support he needed.
{ooc - well got more out than I thought I would, after working on this for 3 hours lol - but wasn't at the computer the whole time.}
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Post by Samuel Carhill on Aug 25, 2010 6:44:22 GMT -5
When Sam had moved on the lounge, then forward to put his arms around Dom. He soon felt Dom's hands touch and hold onto his arms. All he said to Dom was that he was sorry, and would understand if he wanted him to go. Sam swallowed, closing his eyes for a second, feeling the grip of Dom's hands on his arms. He then blinked back a few tears that were threatening to fall. Sam felt a little relieved, just knowing that deep down Dom didn't want him to go, what with the way he was holding his arms right that second.
Dom then spoke, which made Sam find a small smile creep onto his lips for just a second. He continued to talk, and then Sam heard him say that he didn't do anything wrong. Well, this just put a small frown on Sam's forehead, and he went to open his mouth, but then shut it so that Dom could finish what he wanted to say. Hearing Dom say that he was the one who did something wrong, made him wonder what he was talking about. "What did you do Dom? What? I, uh don't understand."
Sam shifted in his seat, and then slid down to the floor to be next to Dom. He felt that he had to be next to Dom to give him his full attention. Sam then gave Dom his space a little so that he could tell him what was wrong. Dom then said that he should have told him something, which made Sam blink a couple of times. All these terrible thoughts went through his mind, wondering what was so bad that he had not told him till now. Hearing Dom say that he had told Stacey, and that was why she was here now. Sam turned to look at her, still more confused then ever, and then turned back to hear the rest of what he wanted to say.
Sam swallowed, then nodded, when Dom firstly started off with telling Sam that he didn't believe that for one minute he was like 'him', and he didn't believe for one minute that Sam could have hurt him. Hearing the word 'him', Sam put two and two together, knowing that whatever he was going to say was probably about his past lover or something. Or someone from his past. As Dom spoke, Sam kept his attention on him, not wanting to lose what was being said.
Then Dom said that why he had acted the way that he did when Sam had pushed him into the wall was because his ex-partner raped him. All Sam could do was gasp, and then looked away from Dom. He tried to concentrate on what was being said after that, but it felt like his ears were getting blocked, and everything was echoing. Sam tried to take deep breaths, but it wasn't working. It was like he was going to faint, or be sick, or something. He swallowed again, to try and bring his swimming head back to reality, but it wasn't working.
Sam felt Dom's hands still on his arms, and his eyes diverted to that area. Soon enough his ears were starting to unblock, and he blinked, frowning a little, but still not looking at Dom. Sam tried to find his voice, but there was nothing. So all he got out was a cough, clearing his throat. Sam cleared his throat, then attempted to talk again. "I... uh... I don't..." He then pulled his arms out of Dom's grip, and scrambled to his feet. Sam quickly glanced at Dom, then looked away. "I think... I don't know. I need time to... uh... think." Then Sam quickly walked over to the main door, and opened it, leaving Dom behind in the lounge room.
He headed to the far part of the front yard, and didn't get to the corner of it, as he just collapsed onto the grass. The words that Dom spoke only seconds ago were running through his head. He was raped, what Sam did brought back those memories. Sam felt bad, and he felt sick, and he felt like he should just leave Dom. Not for what he said happened to him, but for how Sam had made him feel. Though right now, all Sam could do was let his exhausted head just rest. Then the tears came, and Sam placed his head in his hands once more and cried.
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Post by Dominic Salvatore on Aug 25, 2010 11:21:47 GMT -5
When Dom mentioned to Stace about speaking to David about how what happened was still affecting him as well as getting pointers on how to tell his parents Stace replied saying that whatever he wanted to talk to David about it would hopefully help him and that they were all there for him. He nodded his head and gave her a weak smile, “I hope it helps Stace and I know you’re all there for me, it means a lot.” He hoped that once he spoke to David about it all that David would be there for him too.
Then it came to telling Sam why he had ran out on him before, however when Sam had said that he was sorry for whatever he did and if he wanted him to leave he would understand Dom had put his hands up around Sam’s arms holding him tightly as if to say that he didn’t want him to leave, which he didn’t. He had then said as much before glancing at Stace as if he was looking for her approval, not that he needed it. However he saw her nod her head slowly and that was all the encouragement he had needed before he began to pour his heart out to Sam about everything.
He had started it by saying to Sam that he was the one who had done something wrong, meaning that he should have been honest with Sam in the first place. This made Sam question it by asking what he had done and that he didn’t understand. That was when Dom spoke saying that he should have told him what he was about to tell him sooner and added that he hadn’t been able to tell anyone other than Stace so far. “If I had found the courage to tell you what happened to me in my past, then maybe this wouldn’t have happened today.” Dom said in a soft barely audible voice and then he took in a couple of deep breaths and told Sam the rest of what he had to know.
When Dom got to the bit of telling him that his ex-partner had raped him he heard Sam gasp but Dom continued to tell more after that but did notice that Sam looked away from him and he couldn’t help but bite down on his bottom lip slightly knowing that Sam wasn’t taking the news very well, but then would anybody? Dom soon finished what he had to say and then glanced at Stace with a worried expression because it would seem that Sam wasn’t going to say anything at all. But then he looked back at Sam and that was when he began to speak, or at least tried to speak. Then Sam did what Dom had hoped he wouldn’t do, he pulled himself out of the embrace and struggled to his feet and after trying to speak again telling him that he needed time to think in broken words he was out of the lounge room and heading toward the garden.
Dom just collapsed back onto the floor and sobbed his heart out. He didn’t even look at Stace because really what could she do to help the situation anyway? It wasn’t as if she could go out there after Sam and tell him that he should be in there to support Dom, after all if he’d been honest with Sam in the first place then this wouldn’t be happening now. He slowly brought his knees up and began hugging into them as he rocked back and forth in front of the lounge and just continued to sob for a few minutes and then glancing out to see where Sam had gotten to he saw that he was on the ground, this made Dom find his inner strength again, they couldn’t leave it like this, they couldn’t. Sam might have needed time to think but he couldn’t make it look like he didn’t care. So he stood up and looked at Stace with a very sad expression, “I should have told him sooner, I have this awful feeling Stace sugar that this might be the end of us.”
If that was the case then Dom knew there would be nobody else for him, he would never put himself through another situation like this again, telling Sam had been difficult enough for him there was no way he would be able to tell another prospective lover about what happened to him. He then slowly made his way out to where Sam was but didn’t approach him too closely feeling like he should still rightfully give him some space. He quietly cleared his throat and then keeping himself composed and finding the inner strength from somewhere he looked in Sam’s direction again. “I didn’t expect you to take what I told you easily Sam my darling, but you have to know how I feel about you, how much you mean to me. I would be willing to sacrifice my career to be with you completely, you know this and yet I know you would never want me to do that nor expect me to and that’s why I love you so much. But to have the man I am in love with so much walk out on me after I told him the hardest thing I knew I would ever have to tell him, it’s hurting me more than anything else ever has. I can’t make you stay Sam but I don’t want you to go either.” Dom said and coughed a couple of times so he could keep his composure before he continued.
“And don’t forget that despite what happened in the past, despite the fact that I’m a pop star, I’m still just a boy standing in front of a boy asking him to love him.” Dom then bit down on his bottom lip again, “But I can see that you need time, so that’s what I will give you, I just couldn’t not come out and say what I said my darling because I didn’t want you to think that I don’t care, because I do.” He then slowly made his way back into his house to where he had left Stace and just collapsed onto the lounge and then looked up at Stace with extremely sad eyes, “I don’t ... I just don’t ...” But he couldn’t get anything else out and he just began to sob his heart out finding that his inner strength was now completely gone.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Aug 26, 2010 0:48:29 GMT -5
Stacey continued to keep in the background, and then watched as Sam got up, and left Dom on the floor. As she looked at Dom, rocking back and forth, crying, Stacey shook her head. She had hoped that Sam would have been a bit more supportive. Kind of like the way she was toward Dom when he had finally told her what had happened. But maybe because he was Dom's lover, the perspective was different or something. Who knew.
Dom then got up, and looked at her, and just seeing his face the way it was was killing Stacey so much. He spoke to her, making Stacey slowly nod, knowing what he was saying was the truth, in regards to him telling Sam soon. But then she put her hand over her mouth, hoping that what Dom said last was not the case. Stacey knew that Dom truly loved Sam, and hoped that this did not break them up. If that was to maybe be the case, Stacey wasn't sure what would become of her best friend.
Stacey watched as Dom went out to where Sam had gone, and she stood and waited for the final verdict to this sad time between her best friend and his lover. She looked down at her engagement ring, and wondered what would have become of her and David, if he wasn't a therapist, and she had to tell him of her own past. Would he have been so understanding of what she had gone through, how she had somehow made the last man in her life feel?
After a few moments, Dom came back, and Stacey bit on her bottom lip, watching her best friend slowly come inside, and just sat on the lounge. Dom looked at her, and she could feel tears sting in her eyes. She took a deep breath, as he spoke, hoping that her sadness was not evident, as she wanted to be strong for him as much as possible. Dom tried to talk to her, but he couldn't, and she watched him cry his heart out right in front of her. She went to make a start towards him, but then saw that she didn't need to.
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Post by Samuel Carhill on Aug 26, 2010 2:14:59 GMT -5
Sam had questioned Dom, asking what he had done, and he didn't understand. Dom then spoke, adding more about if he had had the courage to tell Sam what happened, then what happened this afternoon wouldn't have happened. Sam swallowed, and allowed Dom to talk more. Hearing that Dom's ex-partner has raped him, had made Sam gasp, and then continued to hear what more Dom had to say. Hearing it all made Sam look away, and all these emotions came over him. He tried to talk, but it wasn't coming out, and soon he left Dom in the room, and headed out the front door.
When Sam had gotten only a few feet from the door, he had collapsed in a heap, with so many things going through his head, it was just too much to take in. Soon the tears had overcome him again, and he sat there with his head in his hands. He was truly hating himself for being so rough with Dom. But the thing that Dom said played back in his mind, in regards to if he had told Sam, this afternoon wouldn't have happened. Maybe so, but in the heat of the moment something still could have been done. Who knew.
Sam felt angry then, and soon felt some of the tears starting to subside. As Sam wondered what he should do, Dom's voice filled his ears. He held his breath for just a split second, then let it out. He took his hands from his face, and planted his open hands on the ground. Sam took in everything that Dom said, but just couldn't acknowledged him right now. He felt numb, like he couldn't feel anything, not even his own beating heart. Dom continued to talk, then spoke of his career, and that he knew Sam would not want him to sacrifice his career, then added that that was why he loved him so much.
Fresh tears began to sting at Sam's eyes, hearing that Dom loved him. He tried to steady his breathing, blinking, looking at the ground. Dom finished off, and Sam heard what he said about Sam walking out on him, and how that hurt him. Well that just made Sam feel all the more worse, knowing that he had broken Dom's heart with just one little gesture of needing space. He was normally such an understanding person, but for some reason he had to just get out of the room before. Though hearing Dom say that he couldn't make Sam stay, but didn't want him to go either, made him start to get upset.
Dom continued to talk, after coughing a couple of times, and then what he said next made Sam really listen. Of all the words he had to say, it had to be similar to the lines from Sam's favourite movie. Sam closed his eyes for a few seconds, and could visualise how it must look right now. Two grown men getting all emotional. Great, thought Sam, I wonder if the paparazzi are outside right now capturing this personal moment between us. He side glanced towards the road, but there no one that he could see. Sam then looked back down at the ground, and Dom was soon finished, stating that he basically did care.
Sam blinked a few times, starting to sit up. He quickly turned around, but Dom was gone. He sat on the ground, staring at the door to the house. Hearing all the things that Dom had just said were starting to hit home. Sam had felt like he had done something terribly wrong, but it seemed that what he had done had triggered a memory that Dom was probably trying hard to forget. Sam had never been in that situation with anyone, and he hoped he never would. He now felt his heart telling him to just go to Dom, which he did. Sam slowly got up, brushed his pants and hands off, and made his way towards the front door.
He opened it, and saw Dom in a mess in the lounge room. Sam looked at Stacey, and bit his bottom lip slightly, and then his eyes diverted to where Dom was, and he slowly went to him. He wiped the tears from his own face, and soon found his voice to talk to Dom. "I wonder if I can, uh, turn back the clock, would I still do what I did to you? I don't know, I guess, my answer would be. I don't know what I would have done." Sam moved closer to Dom, and bent down to his level, still not touching Dom. "I guess that all I can say right now is that this boy, that you were standing in front of outisde, is willing to love you for all that you are." Sam sat near Dom on the lounge, waiting to see what he might say.
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Post by Dominic Salvatore on Aug 26, 2010 19:18:40 GMT -5
Dominic felt as if his heart had been truly broken when Sam got up and left him after he had poured his heart out. Yes a part of him knew that it wouldn’t be the easiest thing Sam would ever have heard a lover tell him, but he had hoped that Sam would have reacted slightly better than he had. However putting himself in Sam’s position and knowing that he was the one to have brought back the memory of his past maybe Dom would have done the same thing blaming himself for bringing the memory back. Maybe that’s why Sam had left him, maybe he blamed himself for bringing the memory back for Dom, but regardless as to why he had done it, it had hurt Dom more than anything had ever hurt him. Knowing that he couldn’t leave it without saying some more to Sam although he had sobbed for a few moments giving Sam some space he had stood up and after speaking to Stace saying that he should have told Sam sooner he saw her nod her head slowly and then he had added that he had this awful feeling it may be the end of them. He saw Stace put her hand up to her mouth then and he knew what she was thinking. He was thinking the same thing himself; he didn’t want it to be the end of them he truly loved Sam with everything he had.
Dom had then gone out to where Sam was and began to speak to him. He watched as Sam moved his hands from his face and put them onto the ground and although he wasn’t saying anything it was evident to Dom that he was at the very least listening to him so he continued to tell Sam how he was feeling and what was on his mind having to get it off of his chest. When Dom was finishing off what he felt he needed to say to Sam he had used the lines from one of Sam’s favourite movies ‘Notting Hill’ but twisted it slightly to fit what he needed to say. He hadn’t done it on purpose to get Sam’s attention it was more just the fact that that one line in the movie was one of the best and Dom had always wondered if he would get to use it and now he had. Dom had then said that he could see Sam needed time so he had made his way back into the house and left Sam where he was.
Dom had then made his way back into the lounge room and sat down and had looked at Stace with very sad eyes and tried to talk but the words weren’t coming out and then he just began to sob again. He just sat there with his head in his hands feeling like his world was crashing down around him, it was going to be even worse than the end of him and Simon, that had hurt sure, but with Sam it was so very different and Dom already felt a hole in his heart with everything that had gone on between them in the past few minutes. Dom didn’t dare look up and see if Sam was approaching because if he did and he saw that Sam wasn’t there anymore and had left he didn’t honestly think he would be able to cope with it because quite honestly he now knew that he couldn’t live without Sam in his life.
Dom hadn’t even been aware of Sam coming into the lounge room until he began to talk and inside his heart began to beat furiously in his chest, so much that he knew if Sam had superhuman hearing he would have heard it clearly. He spoke about turning the clock back and wondering if he would have done the same thing he answered saying that he didn’t know. But really it wasn’t what Sam had done which got to Dom so much, or maybe it was, but it was more the memory that Sam brought back by doing what he did that was getting to him. Right now he still couldn’t say anything because he was still sobbing too heavily. Then still not looking at Sam he could sense that he got closer to him and then spoke again saying that this boy he was standing in front of outside was willing to love him for all that he was.
Dom then felt Sam sit next to him and although the tears were still rolling down Dom’s face he turned to look at Sam and willed the tears to stop so that he could say something but as he opened his mouth to say something, nothing was coming out. He had said all he could say when he had the strength in him standing outside but that strength for all that he was superhuman had completely gone from him just now. All he could do was continue to sob for a few moments until he could feel that the tears were coming to an end and then he bit on his bottom lip in a bid to compose himself and then he just inched himself closer to Sam and put his arm around him and rested his head on his shoulder and let out a sigh of relief.
He then shifted slightly so that he could look at Sam more, “I am so sorry that I couldn’t tell you any sooner my darling, I truly am, but I am so glad that you are still here, I honestly thought I was going to lose you. You didn’t really do anything wrong, all you did was bring back a horrific memory of something I should have told you about at the start of our relationship and I am really sorry that I didn’t say something then. You and Stace are the only two people that know, I’ve never been able to tell my family and so I’ve never spoken to anyone about it. You might just have to be a bit, well, less physical with me my darling until I can talk to David and see if he can sort me out.” He glanced at Stace then and gave her a weak smile and knew that he should really let Stace go now, it was time for him and Sam to talk more about what had happened.
He moved out of the embrace and stood up and approached Stace and wrapped his arms around her bringing her into a tight hug, “Thank you so much sister for coming despite what you might have been doing, I really appreciate you doing that. I promise that I’ll introduce the two of you properly soon, but I think maybe Sam and I should talk some more about this now.” He then gave her a massive kiss on the cheek and squeezed her in the hug again before letting her go and going back to sit on the lounge and wrapped Sam in his arms, “I am so in love with you Samuel Carhill, I can’t be with anyone but you.”
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Aug 27, 2010 23:24:35 GMT -5
When Sam had come back inside, Stacey was glad for it, as she knew that he would be the only person who would be able to comfort Dom right at that moment. She didn't give Sam any sort of facial expression, when he looked at her, when he came back into the house, but followed where he was going, and let out a sigh of relief. Stacey once again kept in the distance, not getting in the way of what they were trying to work out.
After Dom had spoken to Sam, she heard him say at the end that he had only told herself, and now Sam about what happened. Stacey hoped that one day he might get the courage to tell his family about what happened. And if she had to be there for it, then she was more than willing to be there for her best friend. She would be there for him through anything, and she knew deep down that it was the same if she was going through a difficult time. When Dom glanced in her direction, giving her a weak smile, Stacey gave him a warmer one back, glad that he had done so well, despite how Sam had acted, which was to be expected.
Soon enough, Dom moved away from Sam, and headed in her direction. When he wrapped his arms around her, Stacey instantly moved her around him, giving his body a bit of a squeeze. When he thanked her, saying that he appreciated her for what she did. She shook her head a little, then he spoke more about introducing the two of them properly soon, and saying that Sam and himself should talk some more about it all now. When they pulled away together, Stacey gave him a smile. "It was no worries. I was glad to come. If you need me after, all you need to do is call, okay?" She closed her eyes for a second when he kissed her, then returned the hug back which Dom gave her.
Stacey looked at Dom, "I will call you tomorrow, if I don't hear from you tonight okay?" She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek, nodded a little towards Sam, then made her way out through the back door, heading towards her car.
{ooc - Stacey out I think lol}
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Post by Samuel Carhill on Aug 28, 2010 0:55:02 GMT -5
Sam had soon come back into Dom, and spoke to him. He could see that Dom was definately distraut over the whole thing, as he saw Dom continue to cry. Sam got down to his level, and said more, being more closer to Dom this time, and spoke to him, saying that this boy, that Dom was standing in front of outside, was willing to love him for all that he was. Sam had then sat next to Dom on the lounge, wondering what he might say or do to what he had said.
Dom soon turned, and Sam felt tears sting in his own eyes, seeing his lover so upset. He went to listen to Dom, as he opened his mouth, but nothing came out. When Dom continued to cry, Sam put his hand on Dom's leg, just resting it there hoping that they might talk soon. After a while, Sam felt that he had calm down more, and noticed that Dom might have as well. Dom soon moved himself closer to Sam, which he was happy with, and sighed a little, when Dom put his arm around him, and put his head on Sam's shoulder. Sam instantly put his arm around Dom, feeling so exhuasted, more mentally then anything, over what happened.
He felt like a weight had lifted off his shoulders. It seemed he had Dom back, after thinking that he was going to lose him, after walking out. Sam knew he shouldn't have walked out on him like that, but at the time he felt he had to. He couldn't explain it. Dom then moved, and Sam looked at him, with so much love, and feeling very sorry for himself. Sam just shook his head a little, moving his hand to interlace with Dom's, as Dom apologised for not telling Sam sooner, then said that he was glad that Sam was still here, adding that he thought he was going to lose him. Sam continued to listen to what Dom said, and took in every little thing he had to say.
Hearing that he didn't do anything wrong, only bringing back a terrible memory, Sam felt a tear run down his face. He quickly wriggled his hand out of Dom's, and wiped it away. He still felt bad for that, though he knew he didn't know about what happened. When Stacey was mentioned, Sam glanced in her direction, then looked at Dom. When Dom said that Sam might just have to be a bit less physical with Dom, until he can talk to David, Sam nodded, understanding. Once Dom was finished, Sam just wanted to say one thing. "I can do that, but I can't promise anything in the heat of the moment," he said in a quiet voice, and looked right in the eyes as he said it.
Sam then watched Dom say his goodbye's to Stacey, and Sam just sat there, playing with his watch on his arm. He was a little more happier after the little situation they had all found themselves in. Sam though was still feeling a little bad about bringing that memory back for Dom, though because he had, he had been able to find out part of his past. Sam saw Stacey about to leave, when she nodded towards him. He gave her a small smile, and a bit of a wave, then watched her go.
Dom then came over to him, and the first thing he did was wrap his arms around Sam, and he put one arm around Dom, and rested his other hand on Dom's arm. Sam looked at Dom, definately feeling much better about the situation earlier, and smiled for the first time in what felt like forever. Hearing what Dom said made him truly happy. "Ditto from me sweetie. I can't see anyone else but you in my life right now. I love you." Sam then slowly moved in, and kissed Dom softly on the lips. After a few seconds, Sam broke away, and nestled into Dom.
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Post by Dominic Salvatore on Aug 28, 2010 20:57:56 GMT -5
After Dom had tried to talk to Sam and nothing had come out and continued to cry he soon felt Sam’s hand on his leg and he glanced down at it sitting there and couldn’t help but smile at how good it felt. Dom soon managed to calm himself down and moved closer to Sam and put his arm around him and rested his head on Sam’s shoulder. Sam then wrapped his arm around Dom and all he could do was sigh gently. He loved being close to Sam and he felt really bad about what happened before. He knew that he was going to be leaving tomorrow for a week and he knew that all he had wanted to be was close to Sam and then everything had to blow up on them with his past. Dom didn’t think he would ever be able to forgive Simon for doing that to him as he had really messed with his head and life. Dom felt like he was never going to be able to move on from it all that Simon would always be there as a constant reminder of his past. He hated it. He really did need to talk to David about it, how much fun would it be for him if every single time Sam got a bit physical in the heat of the moment and all Dom could do was think about the horrific rape? It wouldn’t be good for either of them.
Despite how it had happened it did feel good to Dom that Sam knew about his past but he couldn’t stop thinking that if he had told Sam from day one of their new relationship that this might not have happened today. But he knew you couldn’t live life in what ifs and might’s because the truth is neither of them would know how it could have or would have turned out if Sam had known so they would never know. When Dom had then shifted slightly feeling like he could talk he saw the look that Sam gave him and closed his eyes for a second taking that look of love in from Sam and feeling a rush of love for Prince all over again. He soon saw Sam shake his head and then he interlaced his fingers with Dom as he spoke apologising. When Dom said that Sam hadn’t done anything wrong only brought back a horrific memory he knew he maybe shouldn’t have said that as he saw a tear fall from Sam’s eye. He was going to wipe it away but Sam had beaten him to it. He gave Sam a warm smile, “Hey, my genuine, kind, caring, sensitive and loving Prince, there’s to be no more of those, I think we’ve shed enough between us.” Dom said softly as he gave Sam a look filled with love.
Dom had then continued to talk saying that Sam might have to be a bit less physical with him Sam replied saying that he could that but couldn’t promise anything in the heat of the moment. Dom knew that could be true, because in the heat of the moment when in the throes of passion he knew that sometimes things can happen you lose control of. Dom reached for Sam’s hand again and interlaced his fingers with Sam’s and gave him a warm smile, “All that I need is for you to try, but Sam my darling I don’t expect you to be able to promise anything in the heat of the moment, I love you so much my darling, you must know that there is nothing I would love than to be very physical with you and to be honest, now that you know and now that I know what I can sometimes expect, what happened earlier is less likely to happen again and talking to David about it, well it might help even more. I don’t want for us not to have a sexual relationship, I’m not going to let him ruin the rest of my life, he did that enough to be quite honest.” Dom said as he squeezed Sam’s hand in his own.
Dom had then got up and went to Stace wrapping his arms around her in a hug and felt her squeeze his body a little as she hugged him back and then he thanked her for coming over despite what she may have been doing at the time and told her that he would introduce her to Sam properly again another time. She said that it was okay and she was glad to come and if he needed her later he just had to call. “Thanks Stace sugar.” He replied and then he had given her a massive kiss on the cheek. Stace then said she would call him tomorrow if she didn’t hear from him that night. “Okay Stace.” He replied and then Stace had kissed him on the cheek and watched as she nodded toward Sam and then she was out the door. Dom had then made his way back over to Sam and sat down wrapping Sam in his arms and telling him that he was so in love with him and couldn’t be with anyone but him. Dom soon felt Sam’s arm go around him and his other hand rested on Dom’s arm.
Sam then spoke saying it was ditto for him and called him sweetie, Dom loved hearing him call him that and he gave Sam a warm smile. Sam then continued to say that he couldn’t see anyone else in his life right now and that he loved him. Dom didn’t get much of a chance to reply at that point as he soon felt Sam’s lips on his own giving him a soft kiss which Dom returned just as softly. When Sam broke away Dom sighed contently and as he felt Sam nestle into him Dom snuggled into Sam all the more too. “Are you okay with me talking about it more with you? I mean like it all sort of came out abruptly before, do you think you’re okay with hearing more about it? I guess I just feel that now you know maybe you should know the full thing, as to why he done it you know? But if you don’t think you’re ready to hear it, that’s fine also my darling. But I need to say this again, despite running out before; I know you would never have hurt me like he did.” Then despite Dom telling Sam there was to be no more tears he felt a tear run down his cheek as he said that.
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