Anastacia's Imagination

[Anastacia Potter]

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Everyone calls me Anastacia Potter!
I have been walking this planet for 24 years!
Due to parts of my personality, people compare me to Anne Hathaway!
It's the quiet ones you have to watch out for!

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I have a couple of things that I love, and here they are.

Dogs

I absolutely love animals, but I have to say that I love dogs full stop. Here is a picture of my dog, Daniel, who I named after not my father but after a tv character.

Brendan Harris

On the 25th of May 2009, I met the most wonder man I could imagine. He is now a part of my life, and couldn't wish for anything else. I am so glad that he was there that night when my drink was spiked with that ability enduced drug. I am not sure what would have happened to me if he wasn't there. I love you Mr. Brendan Harris.

David Callaghan

On the 29th October 2009 I had my last therapy session with David. After four weeks of sessions with him, we felt that I was right to not see him anymore. Was I wrong. Well was right with the no more sessions, but not another thing that I hadn't thought about. After some discussions, it seemed that David had feelings for me. And after a while I soon realised that I had hidden feelings for him as well. So we have been together now for four and half months now as of the 2nd April 2010.

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Dates to remember:

25th May 2009: Met Brendan Harris
1st July (1984): My Birthday!!!
15th Sept 2009: Broke up with Brendan
30th October 2009: Starting dating David
12th December 2009: David and I are engaged!
22nd January 2010: Ebony Amelia Callaghan was born!
14th June 2010: Offically single once again.

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[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 26th June 2009 <:}

Well, I am in love!!!

That is all I can say at this point in time. I have known that I have been in love with Brendan Harris for a month now, but really. He has just outdone himself big time.

Hours ago, he blindfolded me, and took me on a plane. That trip was eventful, and not how you might think. Nothing like that happened, but I wish it had. No, I had to end up flighing in a plane for the first time in my life, and got sick. How romantic. Though I am glad that it was Brendan who was there for me the whole time. If you are reading this B, I am so sorry you had to witness that little side of me. Just what you wanted to happen on the surprise flight. Well, Surprise!!!!! Your girlfriend has a fear of flying. And of all times to get sick was then. Though the second time I am glad in a way you didn't see me. It was kind of not as bad, but still it was gross.

The rest of the flight was good as it could be for a flying virgin. I am glad that I started to feel better, so I could spend some quality time with Dimples, well as good a time as I could give. But anyway.

The big surprise for me was where Brendan took me. I literally had no words initially. He took me to Paris. I can't thank Brendan for taking me here. Well I will have lots of time to thank him, if you catch my drift. lol So for now, we are just getting settled into our hotel room, and will definately journal more when we do more over the next week.

I am so in love!!!!

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 28th June 2009 - [Paris Time: 12:10pm] <:}

Well last night was such a blur. Brendan asked me to marry him, using fireworks. He firstly took me to a fancy restaurant, and then we went up to the top of the Eiffel Tower, where half an hour later he popped the question. Of cause I said yes. But felt a bit nervous as we had a bit of a crowd around us.

But now I feel totally different. This morning I was again sick, and felt like shit. So we both agreed to go and find a doctor who was working on a Sunday. Well that might have been a big mistake now, as we found out that I am actually pregnant. I didn't handle it as well as I should probably have had. I walked away from Brendan, needing my space. I just needed time to process all of it.

But now I know that I want to just wrap my arms around, and tell him my decision. Though I have no idea where he could be. He isn't in the hotel room, so he might just be doing some of his own thinking, even though he was set on the idea of having a baby with me.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 28th June 2009 - [Paris Time: 5:25pm] <:}

I am finally in a fantastic place right now. After so many doubts about keeping the baby, I had made the decision to go through with the pregnancy with Brendan. I knew he would be over the moon with my decision, and I am happy as well. I wasn't sure if I was ready to have a baby, but now I know for sure, after serious thinking.

I feel that I am back to my normal, playful self, with Brendan. After some great make up sex, we are back to normal. I think that we are more in love than ever. He told me that he would be with me through the whole thing, even telling me that he wanted to push the wedding forward, like when we got back home. So now I will have a wedding to plan. I can't believe it!

And I can't believe that I went on and rambled off a list of some of the bad things that I will have to deal with. But of cause Brendan told me that WE will deal with all of it. I am glad that he is there with me. I can't imagine anyone else by my side. I love him so much.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 15th September 2009 - 11:48pm <:}

I have just gotten the energy and courage to write in this thing after so long. Not sure how much I will actually write, but let's just see how I go.

Well, the day had started off fine. Did the normal stuff, and all, leaving slightly early fro the appointment, but that worked out fine, as there was a pit of traffic. Both Brendan and I were both very excited for today, as it was the day that we would see the baby during the ultrasound. We got there, and I was feeling nervous, but Brendan reassured me that there was nothing to be nervous about. Finally got the part where we saw the baby, but then it all went to shit then.

I knew that I was four months pregnant, and I thought that Brendan knew that as well, but it seemed it didn't work out for him. As he spoke, I though about it, and then disaster struck. I remember the night, two weeks before I met Brendan. I had infact met up with Jake Hanniger, the guy who I had sworn that I would never, ever, speak to. But when emotions and feelings come into play, plans change. So that one night stand left me pregnant with his baby.

It had killed me inside so much that the baby wasn't Brendan's, and I could see that in his eyes as well. And the way he was talking to me. He was very disappointed in me, and the unthinkable happened. Mr. Brendan Harris actually told me to pack my things, and leave his house. So now, I have nowhere to live, and I am currently residing in this cheap hotel, with bad internet access, so I hope that all this comes through.

We were on the verge of getting to the end of our plans for the wedding, and now that has gone down the drain. At least it was Brendan who was paying for it all, as he is quite wealthy, or should I say his parents. I broke down and cried as I left the engagement ring on the table, near his main door of the house. I stood there, looking at it, remembering how he had asked me to marry him. All those good memories are starting to leave my mind now, knowing that there will be no more of them... ever.

I can't believe that my life is now back to square one. I am again on my own. But the only thing that is different is that I now have baggage. Human baggage.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 9th January 2010 - 8:05pm <:}

I haven't written in this journal for some time, but this I feel is not part of my pregnancy journal.

I bumped into an old friend from school.... the one and only Dominic Salvatore. Yes, I knew the person who is now rather big in the music industry. We just went our separate ways after school, but after the last few months, it was nice to find a familar face.

He hasn't changed at all, still the same old Dom. Just the way he reacted to me being pregnant, then to being engaged just brought back memories of all the good times we had at school. We had such a great chat, and hearing what he had been up to was good to know about as well. It was like old times, just rambling to each other. Don't get me wrong, I can talk to David about anything, but when you have a best friend, you can tell them 100% EVERYTHING! There are just some things you tell you best friend.

To finish off the time together, I went back to Dom's place to watch his favorite movie - Love Actually. It was great to just sit and relax with a good movie. I could tell that Dom loved the movie so much, especially seeing the emotion he showed after it. I got a little teary, but definately not as much as Dom did obviously.

He then showed me his garden in the back of the property, then Dom flew me up to the roof of his house. I couldn't bare to keep my eyes open, despite trying to. I felt no effects from the very short flight, and told him so. The view was spectacular, and being there with Dom made me feel safe. What a great day it was.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 12th February 2010 - 10:06pm <:}

It is rather late for me, but just got Ebony back to sleep so thought I would write down about today.

Dom took me with him, along with Ebony, to the recording studio where he was to work on some things. I was officially going to meet his manager who I had heard so much about. I had questioned Dom on why he had to go in, and it was to do with filming a music video for his first single. So it would seem that I was going to really watch my best friend do his magic.

After the drive, we made our way inside, and I finally got to meet Xander, or Grizzly, as what Dom called him. I was sure that he wasn't that bad, but meeting him was the only way to find out. Banter and discussion was had between Dom and Xander about what he was going to do today, and then we all headed into the set where Dom was to film the video for his single.

I waited on the sidelines as Dom was prepped for the filming, and soon got to see him work. It was apparent that he was going to wear different clothes for different parts of the video. It just amazed me how much goes into these videos. It seemed simple this video, but still good as well. So I wonder how much goes into those really expensive videos... alot more than this one I reckon.

When Dom changed outfits and began to film the next parts, he seemed to not be handling it very well for some reason. I had no idea what was going through his head at all. I heard and took in some of the words being played from the song, and it seemed to me like a very emotional song. Then I watched as my best friend said that he couldn't do it, and then had a go at Xander before walking out.

I followed them all in eventually, and hearing Xander having a go at Dom, I was upset and now very very angry at what was unfolding in front of me. I comforted my best friend, then confronted Xander with a piece of my mind. I then went back to Dom, stating that when he was ready to talk, he could tell me why he had gotten so upset. Now I knew how he was when I was that bad having Ebony. Seeing him so upset over whatever it was was really breaking my heart.

Dom then told me the whole story of him and Simon, his past lover. I just couldn't believe that this Simon person was like that with Dom. Dom was just a sweet and caring person, and never deserved any of that. I am glad that never happened to me, but having it happen to my best friend, was probably the worse feeling ever. I began to recall Simon, not a lot, but remembered him with Dom. He always seemed like a good guy, but I guess some people are like that at first, and later on show their true colours.

I promised Dom that I would try and help him find the next guy he was to be with, and make sure that he is basically good for him. After a few more words spoke, we then all headed back into the studio for Dom to get his make up fixed up and finish off the video he had started. I just hope that Dom finds someone who he deserves to be with.... I will do all that I can to make that happen.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 19th February 2010 - 10:06pm <:}

David, Ebony, and myself went to Dom's open air concert he put on for the town, or the people who managed to get a ticket for it. Just seeing all of his wonderful fans there to see him was great. I had heard his album, but hadn't seen him perform live. It was great to see. And as the concert went on, I was so surprised that Ebony slept through it, especially with it being a concert. Though I guess with it being out in the open it wasn't as bas as if it was in an enclosed place.

After it was all done, Dom came down and spoke to us. And with the two songs that he released in Ebony's name so that she would get half the money from the sales, Dom gave us there to put in her room:

They have now been put up on the wall in Ebony's nursery, where she can see them.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 21st February 2010 - 8:16pm <:}

Looks like it might be an early night for me tonight, so very tired, and Ebony has been on and off sleeping today, so not a good day with that today.

But the good day was partly to do with Dom coming over for a visit. Pity it wasn't a better day with Ebony, but what can you do? So Dom came over just as Ebony was crying again, though she seemed to settle eventually. The first thing Dom did when he got there was to give me a little gift of a necklace, with a pendent with the word 'mom' on it. It was gorgeous, and I got him to put it on straight away.

Then I got down to asking him about his lover. But before he said anything, Dom handed over a bear for Ebony. Another gorgeous present, which played music. It helped later on when she was crying, so it was coming in handy straight away.

Dom then shared about his new lover. His name is Samuel Carhill, and hearing about the initial thoughts of him from Dom, I had to laugh for a second, stating that it seemed he had met his perfect match. I saw the picture of him then, and had to admit he was gorgeous. So Dom is one lucky guy. I had to tease him a bit and took his phone to see if he had more pictures of Sam on there. Loved his reaction to what I said and did. Like it would matter if I saw naked pictures of Dom. I have seen enough of him in his birthday suit years ago, so nothing I hadn't seen before.

Going back to the old days was great to, remembering our more embarrassing moments back in high school. The one time I had seen Dom completely naked, and the day that I lost my bikini top. Was definately great for a laugh, I can tell you. A few minutes later had a bit of a quick talk about if we would have has sex, if Dom wasn't gay, and in the end Dom kissed me! After Dom saying that it was wrong, then finishing off saying that he had always been gave I giggled it off. But I have to admit that I did like the kiss. Though I need to stop thinking about it as really it meant nothing to Dom, and it should be the same to me also.

It was good though that Dom was there, as he was able to calm Ebony down for me when she woke crying. Not sure if I would be able to handle it again after she had been crying all that time before.

Oh and one thing that he mentioned he might do as his concerts, when he has them, is 'tongue diving'! Only he could think of that lol

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 26th February 2010 - 9:45pm <:}

This day turned out great, then a little bit down, then great again. Let me explain...

To start off with, we went to the lawyers in order for David to officially adopt Ebony. I classed him as the father, despite him not being the biological father. He has been more of a father than anyone has to her since she has been born, and happy to have him in my life. It was all finalised so we went for a walk to the park after. I had been thinking about a certain something, and once we got to the park, I decided to share it with David. Well the happy thoughts soon felt like they got shot down, as I got rather upset. I should have known that David would have something to say about it. I wanted a child pretty much right after having Ebony, and it was a bad idea I guess.

After some great words of wisdom from David, and some little moments between us, it worked out okay. I hate fighting, well really it wasn't a fight, just the fact that David was just showing concern over me, which I love. So as long as the Doctor Savarna said it was okay for me to have anther then we would have another. That is what we did, I called his office, and got an appointment. So we bundled ourselves into the car and headed into see Daniel Savarna.

After the examination, he suggested that we wait a month or so, just to make sure that I am okay. He said that everything looked okay, but just to be on the safe side. I was a little disappointed, though after he mentioned that we could do other things to pleasure each other, then I felt a bit better about it. David said he was proud of how I handled it all, which made me very happy. So now the countdown is on till we can try for a second child. Very happy when that day comes I can tell you.

[Anastacia Potter]

{:> 14th June 2010 - 10:56pm <:}

I have come to the conclusion that I don't need a man in my life right this minute. All I want to care about these days is for my daughter, Ebony. She is the one constant in my life right now, and I guess she needs me more than ever. Ebony will always remind me of the one guy who did get me pregnant, and I sometimes wonder if he is okay now. I did hear about how the future Ebony went and saw him for herself, and it seems that he is doing better than how I remember him. So maybe he isn't a bad guy after all. Though for me I am still unsure.

Despite trying to fall pregnant with David, it never happened. But after the ordeal with him, I guess I will be waiting for that to happen again. I know I have choices, but I thing that I need to sort out my family issues, and hopefully I will find another therapist like him who I can confide in.

So the next point in my life right now I need to track down my older sister, whom I haven't seen since I was seven years old. Despite not getting married now, I need to just find her as I need a sister right now.