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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 19, 2009 22:14:28 GMT -5
18th May 2009 Jackson had suggested an early lunch, so that he woulnd't be late for Emma's skating competition. He decided to just catch public transport to go to the lunch meeting with Kristy. Jackson knew he had to think about what he would say and do when he came face to face with her. So thought it would be safer for him to sit in a bus or train, instead of being lost in thought as he drove. He didn't want to end up in hospital from an accident, instead of later on sitting on the side lines as Emma performed. As he got off the bus at the bus stop a block away from the meeing spot - a cafe only a few blocks away from the nearest train station - Jackson still have so many reasons in his head as to why he was doing this. Or so he thought. He thought that maybe they could resolve what happened back when he decided to call it quites, and be friends. That was the thought he kept coming back to all the time. Jackson was soon at the cafe, and chose a table outside, and sat down. The sun was nice that day, and knew that he should enjoy this, as the rest of the day might end up being a bit cold. Not refering to the ice rink he would have to sit near later, but just how the meeting with Kristy might go. He didn't want to go to the competition in a bad mood. Emma would pick up on it straight way.
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jun 19, 2009 23:37:02 GMT -5
Kristy wasn't exactly sure why she was doing this. It had been so long & she was happy, so why did she feel the need to try involve Jackson in Georgia's life? Sure she was his daughter, but if he freaked out back then, would he be any different now? In two years someone could change. She had taken the effort to track him down so it would be stupid to back out now.
Deciding it would be best to be alone at this meeting, Kristy had left Georgia in safe hands. She was currently staying in walking distance of the cafe chosen as the meeting place. Walking would be best, as it would give her a chance to clear her mind of any bad thoughts of things she would love to accuse him of. She was going to give him a second chance. That was what this was about. He deserved that much. Walking also gave her a chance to enjoy the sun which felt warm on her bare arms.
Despite the length of time since she had seen him last, she still recognised him. "Hello Jackson." she said, taking the seat across from him. To be honest she wasn't sure what to expect. She wasn't sure if he would even turn up. Yet here he was, looking so much more handsome than she could remember. Yet with those thoughts came the memories of how he had left her. She did get a little depressed, but as soon as she saw her daughters face all bad thoughts had gone.
"I am glad you came Jackson. I know it has been a while, but I just felt I should come to see you."
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 19, 2009 23:48:48 GMT -5
Jackson soon snapped out of his thoughts when he heard a familiar female voice say hello to him. He looked up and saw Kristy. She hadn't change at all. She still looked the same as the last time he saw her. Though to him she looked like she was doing quite well. "Hey Kristy. How are you doing?" What else could he say? The waiter then came to take their orders. "I will just have a coke and a toasted cheese and tomato sandwhich thanks." Jackson waited until Kristy order to respond to what she said.
"I am glad that I was able to come as well. I have been busy with my music now, and was glad to fit some time in to catch up." Then Jackson thought about what Kristy said at the end of that, "Is everything okay?" Jackson wondered if something had happend, and she needed his help or what. The phone conversation that they had had the other day was very short, just the two of them making a time to meet. No ideas on why she wanted to see him, so that was why all this time this morning, Jackson wondered why.
He was just about to say something when his mobile phone began to vibrate on the table. Looking at it, Jackson saw it was just a reminder about Emma's competition. Looking at Kristy, he smiled. "Sorry. The phone was just reminding me about something that is on this afternoon." Jackson wondered whether he should tell her now or later that he was in a serious relationship at the moment.
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jun 20, 2009 0:12:45 GMT -5
Not long after Kristy sat down, a waiter came to take their orders. Kristy just ordered a glass of water & a toasted ham & cheese sandwich. She didn't think she would be able to eat, she was too nervous about how Jackson would react to what she wanted to say to him. "I am doing fine. Yourself?" She answered his question, a little unsure of how she should start.
Nodding at what he said, Kristy was glad to hear his music was going well enough for him to be real busy with it lately. At his question about everything being ok, Kristy fought with herself from saying something wrong or just plain yelling at him fro leaving. That was not why she had gone through everything to get him to come here. Kristy was going to answer, when his mobile went off. "Oh? Well I guess if you have something on we should keep this short then." Smiling Kristy kept back the curious question of what it was he had on. She really knew nothing of his life now or what it was he could possibly have on. It could be anything really.
The waiter had returned with their drinks, so Kristy waited for him to leave before addressing her reason for asking to meet with Jackson. "Well I guess you are wondering why I wanted to see you. It has to do with your daughter. I was merely wondering if you wanted any part of her life or anything?" There she said it. The words hanged out there as she waited for Jackson to reply. He was probably in some shock or something. He wouldn't even know if she had kept the child, let alone if it was a boy or girl.
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 20, 2009 1:16:24 GMT -5
He was glad that she was fine. Jackson couldn't contain his own happiness, so smiled at her, "I am glad that you are doing good. I am doing really good at the moment." When his phone went off, and looked, he wondered if he should tell her all about what has been happening in his own life. Then when Kristy commented on what he said, in regards to the phone reminder, Jackson knew he had to say something sooner or later.
Looking down at the table, Jackson thought about the right words to say her. But just as he was about to speak, the waiter returned with thier drinks. As the waiter turned his back, Jackson took a long drink from the glass, getting himself preparted for what he wanted to tell her. But before he could talk, Kristy spoke up. He had to nod when she said that he was probably wondering why she wanted to see him. The the next sentence was something that he had thought of, and now it was confirmed.
Jackson quickly sat back in his chair, just looking at Kristy. Though soon realised that he was staring, so he looked down at his glass. "Wow," was all Jackson could mutter. Looking at Kristy, he thought he had better try and say something. "When, um... I don't know what to say." He felt himself getting all confused and a little light headed with the news. Again he reached for his glass, and took another long drink. As he put the glass down, Jackson looked at Kristy. "After I left, I didn't know if you would keep the baby, or if your parents would try and knock some sense into me to make me stay with you. I felt so bad when I left, but I felt that I wasn't ready for any of it. Being a parent, and trying to juggle my career as a musician."
Jackson knew that he had already said that the last time he saw Kristy, but it was the truth. If only she knew that now he was ready, but he was now with Emma, whom he loved more than anything.
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jun 20, 2009 6:39:41 GMT -5
Kristy watched Jackson's reaction. He was clearly lost for words. She hadn't meant to surprise him, yet she hadn't been too sure on how exactly to approach the subject. She hoped she hadn't done something wrong by going directly to the point. She watched as he struggled for words, taking a long drink.
Taking a sip of her water, Kristy looked down at the table before speaking "There was no way I would be able to live with myself if I took away a life. Even if it had barely begun developing." Jackson mentioned about her 'parents' knocking some sense into him. He wasn't far from the truth. They had wanted to go after him, but she had told them not to. She understood why he felt the need to leave, as much as she hated that he did.
"I know you weren't ready then. I am not asking you to be a parent now either. I just wanted to tell you that if you ever wanted to then you could. I am sure that she would love to know her father when she gets older." From experience, Kristy knew what it was like not having her parents. Sure she had her god parents, who acted in the place of her parents, but it wasn't completely the same. "Of course if you don't. I will understand. You have your life to live after all." Kristy had no idea what his life was like now. For all she knew he had a wife & kids already... His decision would have to be based on his current situation, then of course she would give him as much time as he need to think about it.
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 20, 2009 18:42:36 GMT -5
Jackson looked at Kristy as she responded to his reaction to her news. He nodded when she said she wouldn't be able to live with herself if she took a life. Jackson should have known that, but these days some people try and do away with the baby if they don't want it. "I am glad that you kept her. Do you have a picture?"
Jackson was glad when Kristy remembered their last conversation, in regards to him not being ready. But how could he now tell her that he is ready to settle down, let alone tell her that he is now seeing someone who he is willing to have a child with. "Kristy, I am more than willing to be in the child's life, you should know that. But..." Here goes. "...But I am now in a relationship, and I am not sure how she will take the news of knowing that I have a daughter. She knows about our past relationship, and she knows about the phone call a month ago. But..." Once again Jackson had to think. "...she has no idea about me meeting you here right now today. Actually she will probably find out later, but I don't like hiding things from her."
Jackson looked down as his untouched sandwich. Right now he didn't feel hungry. Just thinking about telling Emma about this new information - about his daughter with Kristy. Emma was fine with the fact that he had a relationship with Kristy, and that he didn't want to have a child right there and then. But he was unsure as to how she would look at him when he said that he had just found out that he had a daughter.
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jun 20, 2009 21:38:37 GMT -5
Kristy always carried a photo of Georgia with her, so Jackson was in luck. She got her purse out of her bag to show him the photo. "Here is a recent photo that was only taken a few weeks ago." Then realising she never told him her name, she quickly told him, without saying the reason behind the name. "Her name is Georgia."
Kristy was happy to hear he wanted to be a part of Georgia's life. That was the answer she had been hoping for. Then there was a but... But was an awful word, yet what Jackson said next wasn't actually that bad. She wasn't surprised to hear he was in a relationship, then what he had to say was understandable. Kristy nodded her head, taking a bite of her sandwich. Somehow her nerves had quietened down when he said he was willing to be in their daughter's life. "No one is asking you to affect your current life or relationships. I just wanted to give you that option. Let you know that you have a daughter & you are more than welcome to see her & make decisions on how I should raise her. You know..." Kristy hoped he understood. There was no way she would want to push him into doing something he wouldn't want to do. That is why she had let him leave without a fight.. .as much as she wanted to scream & beg him to stay. That was at that time though. Kristy felt she had moved on from that now... well she hoped she had anyway.
Jackson looked uncomfortable. Smiling Kristy tried to think of a solution to help him with his problem. "I am sure everything will work out fine. If she loves you, I am sure she will be fine with you at least meeting your daughter. Maybe work it out from there. Baby steps." Kristy knew she had no real feelings for Jackson that would be able to get this girlfriend of his worried, & she was happy to make that clear to her. Kristy would do anything really to help get Jackson a part in Georgia's life. Georgia deserved to know her father.
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 21, 2009 5:21:11 GMT -5
Jackson watched as Kristy pulled out a picture of their daughter. When she mentioned the name, Jackson had to smile. Looking at the picture, he just knew that the name fitted somehow. "I think her name fits her Kristy. It looks like she is doing great. But I would think nothing less from you." When Kristy said she didn't want to push him, he knew she wasn't. But he felt that he should get in and help somehow. Just knowing that this child was a part of him he couldn't just step away from the situaion again. "Kristy, I do want to be a part of her life, but probably not the way it should be, like us being together all the time with her. I do still want to see her, and make it known that I am her dad." Jackson stopped and then thought about what he wanted to say next. "I think that I just need to talk to Emma, my girlfriend, about today, that is all." "In regards to Georgia's upbringing, I can see by the picture that she is doing great. She looks reaslly happy." He stared at the picture for a while, smiling again at the happy child. "I honestly think Emma will not have a problem with me seeing Georgia. I think that she would like to meet her as well, if she knows how much it means to me." Jackson decided he didn't really need the sandwich now. So he instead finished off his drink, and then looked at his watch. Noting the time, he could see he had about an hour to spare. "Is there a chance I could see her now, or is it too much?"
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jun 22, 2009 4:04:37 GMT -5
Kristy smiled as Jackson commented about Georgia's name. It wasn't the first time someone had said that to her. It was nice to think that her real mother's name (well most of it) could live on & work so perfectly. In many ways Georgia was like her grandmother too. Then there were the times she reminded Kristy of Jackson. "Yes well thanks. She is doing great. Always smiling & full of energy too." Kristy was slightly embarrassed by Jackson's comment about her skills as a mother.
"I would not expect any more from you. You have your life now. I have mine. I am sure things will work out." Kristy said, again. Somehow it was all she could think of saying to Jackson. The whole meeting was a little weird for her, as she was unsure of how exactly to say things to him.
Kristy glanced at Jackson, watching as he finished his drink, then checked his watch. He probably had to go to whatever it was that his phone had reminded him about earlier. The meeting was just a little awkward for Kristy, so she was a little unsure of what to say when he asked if there was a chance he could see Georgia now. She had not expected him to want to see her so soon. It wasn't that it was too much, it was just a surprise. Kristy wasn't sure if she was ready for Georgia to meet her father now. Or even if Georgia was ready. Should she prepare Georgia for something like this? It was times like these that Kristy felt like a terrible mother. She never really knew what to do. Luckily her aunt & uncle were always there to help her out. They were really special. Yet they never ask to be classed as Georgia's grandparents despite Kristy usually calling them mum & dad.
Finding her voice, yet still unsure of what to say, Kristy tried to answer Jackson, "It should be fine. But don't you have something you need to go to? I wouldn't want to make you late. Maybe we could do it later. You may want to talk to your girlfriend first maybe?"
(OOC: sorry about the wait Mel)
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jun 28, 2009 16:18:00 GMT -5
Jackson wondered if she didn't think it was a good time to see Georgia. But he felt that it was a good time for him right now. "I have some time before my next thing I have to go to. If it is okay, I would love to see her for a few minutes." Jackson hoped that Emma would be fine with this, even though he never discussed this meeting or even meeting this child, though he never really knew if it existed at all.
Jackson flagged down the waiter, "Hey man. Could we get the bill please." The waiter smiled, "Sure thing." Jackson smiled back, "Thanks." Just knowing that he may get a glimpse at his daughter before seeing Emma skate kind of made the whole day worthwile.
Jackson remembered that Kristy had mentioned about him talking to his girlfriend first. He had to reassure her that it would be find. "I am sure that Emma will be fine with it. I did confide in her a few weeks ago about what happened, as our relationship changed. So I felt she had a right to know the man she was dating. So I feel that she will be okay with it." Well he hoped she would be.
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Post by Kristy Rose Lee on Jul 10, 2009 3:59:43 GMT -5
Kristy was still a little unsure about if this was the best time. She hoped that Jackson couldn't see her how conflicted she currently felt. If it was a good time for him, that was all that mattered. Even if it sounded like he was penciling her into his schedule. Kristy knew she should be happy he wanted to see her at all, he could have just blown them off, choosing to not to even be involved in Georgia's life at all. It was also nice of him to see her, before talking to his girlfriend about it all. "Well that sounds great then. If you are sure Emma wont mind."
Jackson's words didn't reassure her much. Sure he probably would know what his girlfriend would & wouldn't like, but she didn't want to intrude on his life. "Well then, as long as I am not imposing on your current life & all." Kristy smiled as the waiter gave them the bill, glancing at the price of her meal, before getting the money out.
Standing, Kristy closed her eyes for a second, praying that this was the right idea & everything would work out ok. "Well I guess we should get going then. Where I am staying isn't far, but still a bit of a walk. Probably will take 15-20 minutes. We wouldn't want to make you late for your meeting now.[/i]"
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Post by Jackson Poe on Jul 11, 2009 18:27:07 GMT -5
"I am sure that Emma will be okay. Don't worry, I will be talking to her about it tonight, after her competition." Jackson knew that would be the case, knowing that he hated keeping things from her. When the waiter came back with the what they owed, Jackson handed over his money, and then stood up. He looked around, and wondered in which direction they would go.
Jackson watched as Kristy paid for her meal, and stood up. He saw her closing her eyes for only a second. Just as he was going to ask if she was okay with what he wanted to do, she spoke. "I don't mind the walk. It is such a nice day for it. And I won't be late, as I have a couple of hours to kill." Jackson hoped he didn't seem like he was rushing Kristy at all, but he knew that what time he had now was good enough for now. He couldn't wait to see his daughter, knowing seeing her in person was going to be different to looking at a picture of her.
Jackson let Kristy lead the way, and was soon lost in his thoughts, but knew that he should make an effort to continue a conversation, due to the time it took to get to where Kristy is staying. Turning to Kristy, Jackson decided to start. "So Kristy, what have you been doing since I last saw you?" He wanted to start small, and then maybe extend on anything she said from now on.
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