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Post by Anastacia Potter on Dec 22, 2009 6:25:57 GMT -5
29th October 2009 Stacey slowly woke up, and turned to looked at her clock beside her bed. It was still a little early to get up yet, but she wasn't just going to just lay about in bed. Stacey knew that this was the day that she was going to finally finish her therapy appointments with David. It was sad to think that, but she knew that she had made so much progress, when seeing him, that now she felt that she could just now move on from everything that she had gone through, and what she had been feeling over it all. Stacey was still glad that she had started seeing him. David had been someone who had really listened to her, and in return reassured her and gave her some great advice to take into account. Stacey felt like that she would never ever get over the whole ordeal over Brendan, the baby, Jake. Just thinking about it all was starting to dampen her spirits a little. Shaking her head, as she got up, Stacey tried to make that all go away. She was definately a more happier person, and was very proud of herself for getting this far, with the help of David. She moved to the bathroom, slowly, and did what she had to do in there, then came out to get dressed. Stacey rummaged through her wardrobe, and found something that would somehow go over her stomach. She was a day off five and a half months pregnant, and for once she was happy with the way she was looking. Initially Stacey had been worried about how she would look in Brendan's eyes, even if he kept telling her that he would care, as he loved her. But to Stacey she was still unsure, as she had never been pregnant, and was just overcome with all the emotions that came with it all. She felt like dressing up a bit, and decided to put on a nice dress. Stacey hardly wore dresses much, but felt that it would be fitting to do so today. So she walked over to the mirror, and nodded to herself in the mirror. Stacey gave herself a reassuring smile, and then headed down the short hallway of her apartment to the kitchen, where she prepared herself a couple of slices of toast, and a cold glass of Coke. After she ate, Stacey also popped some popcorn, and put it in her bag, along with some peanut butter in a small container, to dip the popcorn into. She had started to eat the right foods, but occassionally gave into her cravings for the weird combinations. It was only right. Looking at her watch, she decided to go and run a few errands before the last appointment. Stacey had started to feel like buying stuff for the baby, even though she had no idea what it was yet. She wanted to know, but not really yet. So she had been buying things like bibs, clothes that would suit either sex. Stacey had read about how it depends on how you carry during pregnancy, as to what sex you were having. Well, looking at her stomach in the mirror earlier, she had been thinking that she might be carrying a girl. That did make her happy, as Stacey was hoping for a little girl. She didn't really know why, but it just felt right that was all. After an hour, Stacey made her way to David's office, struggling with a few bags in both hands. Looking at the bags, and how long it had taken her to actually buy the whole lot kind of worried her. She hadn't intended on buying out the whole store, but she knew that she should get them. Stacey still had three and a half months to go, but she didn't want to leave things to the last minute either. So with her shoulder, Stacey pushed open the door, and walked over to the lounge that she remembered sitting in the first time she had come. But that was kind of in the past now. That first day she was down, miserable, and basically blaming herself for all that had happened to her. But now, Stacey was a different women. She was in good spirits, happy, and loved where her life was now. No turning back. Stacey plopped down in the lounge, and dumped the bags on the floor, around her feet. She let out a breath, and just put her head back against the wall. Stacey had only been awake for about three hours, and yet, she was totally exhausted. But she blamed the shopping.
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Post by david on Dec 26, 2009 19:00:36 GMT -5
After the first eventful appointment with Stacey, David had given her back her money for that session, knowing full well she hadn't got the full benefit of it, because of what happened. He had taken an instant liking to her from that day, and at every other session, he'd had to keep his feelings and emotions in check. It wasn't every day a doctor, no matter what level they were, fell for their patient, and David had fallen hard. What was difficult however, was the fact Stacey hardly knew he existed other than being her therapist, and maybe a friend. He had been there for her when she needed him the most. Now, today was going to be Stacey's final session with him, as she had come a long way since that first session and he was very proud of her achievement. He was just sad that after today he wouldn't be able to see her anymore, unless of course she was to suddenly blurt out that she had feelings for him she knew never existed and he doubted that very much.
Thankfully since the moment the baby moved that day in the hospital, everything had kept well with the baby much to David's pleasure, more for Stacey's benefit than his own. Every day he had a session with Stacey when he went home, he'd sit and mull over what it would be like to have her in his life, and how stupid he thought this Brendan guy had been for letting her go. He would never have done that. People could make mistakes all the time, and at the end of the day, it wasn't the baby's fault the father was a bit of a bastard. However, maybe this guy's loss would be his gain, maybe.
David looked at the clock and noticing the time, he knew that Stacey would be there, or should be there. He always greeted his patients, and with Stacey it was no different, apart from, maybe he was a little more hasty at getting out to greet her than he would normally with other patients. Thankfully his assistant Lynda had failed to notice this, much to his relief, he didn't dare to think how he would be able to explain his hastiness at greeting Stacey away to Lynda without incriminating himself.
He got out to the reception area just in time to see Stacey more or less flop onto the sofa in the reception. David, couldn't help but stand with one of his hands on his hips, and the other on the wall, with a slight look of exasperation and annoyance on his face, she should have known better than to go pushing herself with shopping. It looked as if she was pretty laden with bags. He didn't fail to notice just how stunning she looked though, other than being slightly tired with the obvious shopping trip, she looked glowing.
"Stacey Potter, you should know better than to go pushing yourself, after what happened a few weeks ago. You're very naughty, you know that?" He was slightly teasing her, and slightly serious, but to show the teasing side, he did give her a smile, and made his way over to where she was sitting, immediately bent down to pick up the bags in one hand, and with the other held it out for her to take, so he could help her up gently. He shook his head slightly, "So how you feeling today? Obviously better than you've been, given the fact you've been buying out all the baby shops?" He chuckled a little then, and once Stacey was on her feet, he placed his free hand on the small of her back, to help steady her, more than anything else as he led her into his office.
Once inside, he put the bags on the floor beside the plush seat that Stacey would sit on and he once more sat down across from her. "I must admit, that I'm glad you feel this will be your last session with me, but I'll be sad to lose you as a patient. I've enjoyed spending time with you, but I'm very proud of you Stacey, you have to know that, you've come such a long way. It's rather remarkable to be honest, given how you were the first time I saw you. " He leaned forward and gently touched her arm with his hand and gave her a warm smile.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Dec 28, 2009 2:08:26 GMT -5
Stacey closed her eyes, and placed her hands on her bulging stomach. Just as she was feeling how sore her feet were then, Stacey felt the baby kick, just once. A smile spread across her lips, feeling it light up her whole face. At least the little one knew that it was time for playtime when all Stacey wanted to do was rest. Just then the sound of David's voice, almost telling her off, made her instantly open her eyes, and sit up a bit in the lounge. She gasped a little, but then saw the smile on David's face. Stacey bit the bottom of her lip, feeling like a naughty school girl, who had gotten busted by the principal. "Well..." Then she let out a bit of a giggle. She knew that she had been told to rest up, and she had done that. But really, it had been a while, and she felt better, better than that, excellent. So she thought a nice trip would be good to get out of her apartment.
David headed towards her, and picked up the bags that were sitting around her feet. Then he held out his other hand for her to take. Stacey slowly took it, and slowly got up off the lounge, pushing up with the free hand. She then acknowledged his question, as they walked to his office. Stacey felt his hand on her lower back, and was glad for it there, as she was starting to feel like she was walking funny. Maybe it was her feet, or maybe it was the way she was going to start to walk with this small watermelon she was carrying. Who knew. But was comforting for the support anyway. "I am feeling very well, thank you. I just can't believe that I did buy so much stuff. But I just felt this compulsion to buy baby things." Looking downcast, as she made her way over to the chair, she had a sudden sad thought. "Kind of wished that I had someone there to help choose things, you know?"
She let out a short breath, and rubbed her stomach a little, after she sat down in the comfortable chair. Though really, this was not the time to be down and out. It was a time to be happy, as she had been feeling really good over the last few days. As she looked at David, she smiled, liking what he was saying about her progress. It had been a long time coming, but she did feel great about everything. As he touched her hand, she felt a tingle on her skin. Stacey then gave David a smile, not really thinking about what she noticed. "It will be sad to not come anymore. I have gotten used to visiting here, like it is part of my routine. I am sure that we will see each other outside of all of this." Stacey put a hand over his own. "It will be good to have a friend to share it all with." She removed her hand, and sat back into the chair.
"I have been feeling so good the last few days. I think just knowing that everything is going well with the baby, and that it is on track. It has been great feeling it move and kick. But not so great when I am trying to rest or sleep. It seems to like to annoy me in that way." Stacey laughed a little, and rubbed a bit more at her stomach. "Like now, when I am meant to be relaxing, talking to you." Just feeling it move was making her smile all the more. It was just great that her life was getting back on track.
Stacey sat up a bit then. "Oh, and I also applied for a job at the local newspaper. Just to do a little writing here and there, so that I can get out of that shit of an apartment that I am in. Really want to get into somewhere nicer. But that won't happen till I get more money. And now all I need is a guy in my life." She seemed to have about three quarters of the package. Stacey had a place to live, a baby on the way, and a job hopefully. Now all she needed was a guy in her life, and she was set. Looking at David, she didn't know alot about him, and wondered if he had someone special in his life.
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Post by david on Dec 29, 2009 21:16:04 GMT -5
When David had more or less told Stacey off for going shopping when he noticed the amount of bags at her feet and how tired she looked, he saw her biting on her bottom lip. He thought that was kind of cute, and then she said 'well' but never said anything else, just giving him a bit of a giggle. He smiled a bit more brightly and shook his head, "Well, you were told not to over do things. You're very naughty, and as your therapist, I have a right to tell you that." He chuckled a little with an involuntary wink.
David had then made his way over to Stacey and picked up the bags which were surrounding her feet and held a hand out for her to take to help her up. He watched as she took his hand and used her free one to help herself up. As he started to walk her to his office, he had rested his hand on the small of her back, just to make sure she wouldn't lose her balance. He hadn't really given it much thought to what he had done then, it was just an automatic thing for him to do. He had also asked how she was feeling, given the fact she'd been buying out all the baby shops he had to guess she was feeling a little better.
He smiled as she spoke. "Well, I'm really glad you're feeling good, and the compulsion to buy baby things is good really, they will need a lot. You wouldn't want to leave it until the last moment." As Stacey made her way to the seat which had been her seat to sit in during their sessions, she commented on how it would have been nice to have had someone there. He sighed gently, screaming in his own head, and desperately wanting to say it out loud, 'I'd have been there for you, why didn't you ask me to go with you.' However, he knew he couldn't say anything like that, not while she was his patient. Not that she would be for much longer, but then what did he do? Just blurt out his hidden feelings and hope she felt the same way?
Instead, he said, "I understand Stacey, it must have been difficult, although, you could have asked if I was free. You know I'll be on hand to help when I can." It wasn't what he really wanted to say, as that just sounded like a friend telling a friend they'd be there for them when they needed them. What he really wanted was to tell her that he had these feelings for her which had just grown and grown the longer they had spent time together. In fact, he wouldn't be surprised if he was in love with her, but he knew after everything she had gone through with Brendan, that would be the very last thing she would want to hear.
After Stacey sat down he watched as she rubbed at her stomach, thinking to himself, once more how beautiful she looked now that she was blossoming with the baby so well. Thinking what it would feel like to have his arms wrapped around her, holding onto that bump. Then immediately shaking the thoughts from his head, he really couldn't think like this. What if he got so lost in his thoughts, he came out with something he wasn't supposed to say? He would make it very awkward for himself. David had then said it was good she felt this would be her last session with him, but he would miss her. That much of the truth he could say without incriminating his true feelings. When she spoke, and then put her hand over his own, he felt his heart skip a beat. He wanted to just haul her to her feet and kiss her. But no.
"In a weird way I'm glad you'll be sad not having to come here anymore. I've enjoyed our sessions together, I've loved seeing you progress." Again, that was as much of the truth he could say without going too far. When she said it would be good to have a friend to share it all with, he wanted to scream out again. He so desperately wanted to say 'I don't want to be your friend, I want to be more than that.' His emotions were going haywire now, how much longer would he be able to keep his cool, how much longer could he play the doctor to his patient? He took in a deep breath and let out a long sigh. Giving her a warm smile, "Sure, we'll be friends, that will be good." Lies, lies lies. He could feel one of these head arguing with his heart moments coming up, but he was trying to avoid it.
Stacey then went on to say she had been feeling really good the last few days, knowing everything is well with the baby and that everything seems to be on track. She also said about how the baby likes to move when she's supposed to be relaxing. Like right at that moment. David couldn't help but chuckle. "Well, so long as they don't make you get up and dance you'll be fine. I'm really glad everything seems to be going well. You have no idea how happy that makes me feel." You have no idea how much I just want to wrap you in my arms and love you and care for you and your baby forever. God help him if she had some sort of mind reading talent.
Stacey then spoke some more about applying for a job so she could get out of her shit apartment and get some money in her life, and all she needed now was a guy. Again David wanted to scream out and yet, refrained. She could have him if she really wanted, but in all fairness, why would she think of him like that, when he was her therapist? "I'm really happy for you Stacey, that you've felt you've come this far, to get out there and get a job. Even if you will have to give it up or at least go on maternity leave when the baby arrives. This is what makes me feel so proud of you." He wasn't sure if he should remark on the guy comment or not, as it really wasn't any of his business.
He still couldn't stand up and go, 'well if you need a guy, here I am', could he? But what he could do, was tell her he was single, in a very subtle way, after all, she was talking about all she needed was a guy in her life, well he could say, all he needed was a girl in his life, right? That wasn't incriminating his feelings, it was just telling her he was in a similar situation to her own. "Well, I know what it's like to be lonely Stacey, I've not had a woman in my life for some time now." In fact the last proper girlfriend David had was when he had just finished his honors for becoming a therapist. He spent too much time helping his mom with his baby twin sisters to have time for a woman in his life. That was slightly different now. The twins were older, and his mom was able to work again, he still helps them as much as he can, but he now has time for a social life, he just doesn't have one, because he has nobody to share it with.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Dec 30, 2009 3:37:44 GMT -5
Stacey smiled, looking down at her hands. "I know, but haven't until today." Then she looked in the corner of her eye, "Unless you count the time that I went out for a walk, and kind of went shopping, buying too much food. Kind of pigged out when I got home. Not a pretty sight I can tell you. The lounge was kind of a mess. I blame the baby for that little adventure." She laughed, thinking about that afternoon. There were packagings and wrappers scattered everywhere. If David had seen that, he would have totally told her off about it. "Maybe I was making up for all the times I didn't eat, or hardly ate at all." There, there was her real excuse.
She took David's hand as she got up, and they headed towards his office. Just hearing him say that he was glad that she was feeling good made her smile at him. Stacey nodded as David mentioned about the baby needing a lot, and then shook her head, to his last comment. "Nope. Knowing me I would go and have the baby early with all the drama I have been through. It really wouldn't surprise me in the slightest." At this point in time she was a day off twenty-two weeks, but she hoped that she would be close to full term, or just inside that bracket. But so far all was going well, especially when she had started to go to appointments more now. Stacey had been grateful for the encouragement and helpfulness from David, since he had been coming along with her.
After sitting down, Stacey had commented about wishing that she had had someone there when she had gone shopping earlier. She then heard David comment on what she said. "A little. I saw a couple of women with their partners, and I kind of got a bit down for a few seconds, but brushed it off. I knew I shouldn't be worrying about it, but it kind of hit home that I had no one. But I know I could have called on you, but I didn't want to burden you. You have done enough to help with coming with me to the last two appointments. I didn't want to annoy you again."
He had been a great support through the two appointments that she had had since that little ordeal during her first therapy session. But she wondered really how much he would want to do for her or with her. Though deep down she knew that he was her only friend right now that could understand what she was going through. Maybe she should have called him, even if she didn't want to lean on him the entire time. But each time she was with him, Stacey felt more relaxed than she had been over the last month and a half. David just knew the right things to say to put her at ease, and she liked hearing what he said, even if it sometimes she knew that what he was saying was for her own benefit, and for the benefit for the baby. Maybe she should tell him her next adventure then. "Well. I was kind of thinking of going looking for a few bigger things for the baby tomorrow. If you wanted to help with that, that would be great."
Stacey gave him a smile, as David spoke about enjoying their sessions, and had loved seeing her progress. "Well, I have to admit. I kind of thought that I would be having therapy for a while longer yet. But I think that I have come through faster is because you have been my therapist, and you just knew how to get through to me." It was true. Stacey thought that with all that she had been through, she would be in therapy till she was old and grey. But with David's help, it had only lasted a month, which she was glad at. Then she had an idea. "I hope that I am not being too forward, but if you are available to help with the shopping tomorrow, would you like to grab something to eat? Just a kind of celebration for my success in the therapy and all?" It would be nice for her to get out and just relax with a friend at lunch.
Just feeling the baby right then was comforting, but a bit annoying again, as she was meant to be relaxing. She laughed, as David commented about hoping that the baby didn't make her get up and dance. "I am so happy as well. Just thinking back at the time when I couldn't feel anything, and now it just won't stop." She rubbed at her stomach again, just happy that it all went well in the end. Stacey then smiled at David, glad that he was just as happy as she was. But then she burped, blushing slightly. "Sorry. Just before had some Coke, and a handful of popcorn with peanut butter. Still loving those cravings."
She knew that it was probably too late to get a job,but she felt that she was ready. "I spoke to the editor of the local newspaper, and she was really understanding. I can do any articles that I think of at home, before and after the baby is born. I don't necessarily have to be in there, in the office, to do any of them." Stacey was kind of glad of how flexible it was. "I hear from her about it all tomorrow, if I get the job. Kind of excited about it all actually."
Stacey thought more about not having anyone in her life, and wondered about David. It seemed that he had read her mind. She gave him a weak smile, when he spoke about knowing it felt to be lonely. Well, it seemed that they were both in the same boat. Stacey sighed a little, and knew what to say next. "Well it seems that we both need a friend more than ever." She made a mental note to maybe see if he was free for any other things she might need help with. It would be good to have a guy around to help her with things that only a male could do. Stacey was no where near as handy with things that she should be able to do, since she was never brought up to fend for herself.
Just thinking more about what David said, she looked at him. Really looked at him. Stacey didn't understand why he didn't have anyone. He was so kind, caring, and knew what to say to lift your spirits. He wasn't that bad looking either. He was always happy to help. Well, really, he had practically gone out of his way to help her, ever since that day when he rushed her off to hospital. David was also kind enough to stay with her in the hospital, and to even suggest to go with her to the appointments.
Stacey felt her head start to swim with all of these thoughts, then put her hand up to her mouth. All those things pointed to one thing, and one thing only. She didn't know where to look. She finally realised that David liked her, and in some ways, she felt that maybe she might be, just might be, finding hidden feelings as well. Without hesitation, Stacey quickly got up. She quickly fumbled with the bags, trying to pick them up all at once, but she lost a couple. "I um.. I have to go. Sorry. I just realised that I had to contact that editor or something. Sorry." She couldn't bare to look at David, as she tried to pick up the rest of the bags to make her quick getaway.
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Post by david on Dec 30, 2009 21:35:37 GMT -5
David was half teasing and half serious with Stacey about her shopping trip, telling her that she was told not to over-do things, that she was very naughty, and as her therapist he had the right to tell her that. He saw that smile of hers and fell in love with it all over again, she had the most gorgeous smile. She told him that she hadn’t over done things until today, unless you counted the time she went out for a walk and kind of went shopping and bought too much food and then pigged out on it all. David chuckled a little again. “Well, everybody is entitled to pig out now and then, and I think you were more than due it.” He knew how things had been for her, and he certainly didn’t blame her one little bit. He could only imagine what the house looked like with all her empty wrappers and packaging lying around. “That’s right Stacey, just blame the child, because he or she is unable to defend themselves right now.” He chuckled again, as he was still teasing her and he truly hoped she knew that.
When David told Stacey her compulsion to buy the baby things wasn’t so bad, as they would need a lot and she wouldn’t want to leave it until the last moment, she replied saying no, because knowing her she would give birth early, what with everything she had been through recently. He couldn’t really blame her for thinking that way, but at the same time, he would be happier if she wasn’t thinking like that. “I can understand why you would think that way Stacey, but try to stay positive, you’ve done so well so far, and it would be a shame to take a step backward.” He wasn’t meaning to be nasty about it at all, he was just so proud of how far she had come, he wanted her to continue on the right path. “The baby can sense negative thoughts, so you and your baby will be happier if you try to think positive all the time.” He gave her a warm smile then, still naturally being very much the therapist with her as he said all of that.
As Stacey spoke about feeling a little down at seeing other women shopping with their partners, David’s heart really went out to her. He could have been with her, even if it was just as a friend, so she wouldn’t have felt so lonely. David wanted to be so much more than just a friend. All the emotions he was feeling were killing him inside and out right now. “You would not have burdened me by asking, Stacey. I would love to have come. I hate to think of you being lonely, I feel you can’t enjoy your pregnancy the same as if you had someone in your life.” Now just where had that all come from, and why did it sound so wrong in his head? He hadn’t meant for it to be a hint, what if she took it that way? Had he just incriminated himself and his feelings, when he had been trying his hardest to hide it?
David had gone with Stacey to both of her appointments after he had to rush her to the hospital, and really it hadn’t been a bother to him. His assistant Lynda had noticed that he seemed to be doing a lot more for this patient, and she had eventually asked him if there was something he wasn’t telling her. He trusted his assistant, but still he denied it, saying that he just felt Stacey needed more help than most of his previous patients. It wasn’t exactly a lie, but it wasn’t exactly the full truth either. Both of them seemed to have gone a little quiet, while they were both probably lost in their own thoughts, and then David heard Stacey speak again. He gave her a bright smile at what she was saying, and without hesitation, “Sure I’d love to come with you and you are not being too forward at all.” He knew he should have shown a little hesitation, making out that he was checking his diary to see if he was free. The thing Stacey didn’t know was, every time he was there for her, he had rearranged appointments he had to suit, so he could be there. Something he really shouldn’t have been doing, and something which probably would have freaked Stacey out, but he had wanted to be there for her as much as he could, and that was the best way to do it. “And I would love to grab something to eat with you, so long as you allow it to be my treat for doing so well at my sessions.” He gave her a pleading look then, hoping she wouldn’t say no. He really was very proud of her, and he could pay for their meal as some sort of award for doing so well, so soon.
When Stacey began to talk some more about the baby moving, “I know, it was very worrying then Stacey, but I’m going to guess that you would rather the baby behaved the way they are now, than not moving at all again?” He referred to the baby as they or their, because he felt it was better than saying it while you had no idea of the sex. “I really am glad that everything seems to be going so well for you now.” He wished he could have had a more personal impact on her current good status, but the truth was, it had really all been down to Stacey. With this being the last session, he might very well give her a telephone call when it was all over and finally admit to her how he was feeling. If he chased her away, well, at least he wouldn’t sit wondering, if hadn’t at least given it a try. The way David saw it, it was better to know, than not to know.
Not long after that, Stacey let out a slight burp and she had blushed after it, David couldn’t help but chuckle. “No need to apologise. Do you know that it’s actually a sign of good manners in China if you burp after your meal?” He had read that somewhere and found it incredibly funny, but it was actually the truth. Most Chinese would be very offended if you ate at their home and failed to burp afterward. “Besides, that fizz has got to go somewhere, right? If it didn’t come back out, what do you think would happen? You might just float up into the sky and then I’d never see you again.” Oops, had his mouth just gone and done it again? He had been doing so well at keeping his feelings to himself, but then, that wasn’t giving anything away was it? A friend could easily say that to their friend. There was nothing romantic in what he had just said at all. Was there?
“Cravings are weird things; I have to give you that, although to be fair, at least you don’t appear to have some of the weird cravings my mom had when she was pregnant with my twin sisters, Denise and Darla. They’re 12 now and she was eating ready salted potato chips in vanilla ice cream.” David screwed up his nose after saying that. The very thought just made him feel a little sick. He had no idea why he had just told Stacey about his mom and his twin sisters, but something compelled him to tell her a little something about his family. “My dad passed away after taking a massive heart attack only days after my baby sisters came into the world, I was 17 at the time and was thrown into manhood you could say. I helped my mom raise my twin sisters.” Now he had just given away some more of his family history and it was all voluntary, it wasn’t as if Stacey had asked him about his family. Somehow, he just felt like talking about it with her, even though she was supposed to be talking to him about her problems, but it would seem, since they had already established this was her last session, there didn’t appear to be much for her to get off her chest now, so to speak.
Funny how easy a topic can stray, Stacey mentioned cravings, and he began to talk about his mom and dad and his twin sisters. He shook his head a little, he shouldn’t have told her all of that, he was supposed to be counselling her, not the other way around. Although, David hadn’t said it to be counselled, it just happened to roll out of him, possibly because he’d had no real relationship due to helping raise his twin sisters, not that he regretted it, but now that he was out of the house and in his own plush apartment, but by no means ridiculously expensive, he had the time to get into a relationship now, he just had to find the girl. He was pretty sure he had found her, he was looking at her now, but would she feel the same way?
Conversation went back to Stacey and the job she had applied for, and David gave her another warm smile as she spoke some more about it. “Well that’s fantastic Stacey; it will be good for you to keep your brain active, without actually having to go into the office, being able to work from the comfort of your own home. I hope you get it, I’ll be so happy for you.” He really was genuinely happy for her and he really did hope she would get the job, even though he didn’t think she should be working while she was pregnant, especially given the fact she had problems before. However, being independent was important, and so long as she didn’t push it, she should be fine. “You will let me know how you get on, won’t you?”
After David had told Stacey that he was single also, she said that it sounded like they both needed a friend. No, I don’t need a friend, I need a girlfriend, I want a relationship, I need a lover, and I want you. He wanted to scream all of that out, it was killing him. Maybe he should just start banging his head off the wall or something. It might make him feel better if nothing else. Instead, he just smiled at her again, “Yes, I think that’s the case.” Why had he fallen for this woman, why had he fallen for a patient? It had never happened to him before and he never thought for one minute it actually would, but it had. He figured he was doing very well at hiding it, apart from a couple of possible slip ups earlier.
Suddenly, as there was a slight silence between them again, Stacey began to get up, and trying to grab at all the bags, and stumbled over her words, and began to talk about having to make a telephone call. What had caused her to do that? There was only one thing in his mind, he didn’t think she had to make a telephone call at all, she’d figured out he had feelings, and she was trying to get away from him. He couldn’t let her slip through his fingers quite so easily. He stood up and grabbed the bags off of her. “You’re going to do yourself an injury Stacey. Go into the corridor and make your telephone call, I’ll be here waiting for you.” He kept a hold of the bags, so she would have no option but to come back into his office when the ‘telephone call’ was finished. He stood smiling at her warmly. He could have just told her how he felt, but he figured that would just make the matter worse. It was better this way, that way if she had feelings too, then she might be able to tell him before he told her.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Dec 30, 2009 23:12:05 GMT -5
Stacey nodded in agreement. "Yes, everyone should have a pig out." Still imagining that day was funny now, but then she was so hungry, it didn't matter what the place looked like. Really, there was no one going to be there to see it, just her right now. Stacey giggled then, shaking her head, as David commented on her blaming the baby. She then shrugged her shoulders. "Gotta blame someone I suppose."
David was right, she had to stop thinking negatively, and continue to think like she had been the last couple of weeks. Hearing what he was saying, was true. Stacey never wanted to go back to the time when she was rushed to hospital. She looked at her stomach, and knew that she never wanted to lose the baby now, not after everything that she had been through, and what she had accomplished through the therapy sessions. "I know, and I never want to be in the state I was in that time when I was in hospital. Never ever again. That was the most scariest time in my life, and I don't ever want to feel like that again." She was still grateful that she was with David, or with anyone at that time. Stacey could still remember him saying that if she had been on her own when it happened, it could have been much more serious.
Stacey hadn't meant to feel so down when she had gone shopping, but it was true. She gave David a weak smile. "I know. I know that I shouldn't be going over everything that we have already gone over. But before Brendan leaving me, we did a lot together, and I do miss that a little, just sharing stuff with someone, you know. Don't get me wrong it has been great talking to you all about it all. But personal stuff, you know? Things that you can only tell your partner, or husband." Yes, Stacey thought, her and Brendan would have been married by now, and she would have had a future to look forward to. But now, that was not the case.
"Great. I just didn't want to push the boundaries of our new friendship, you know? But it would be great to have some help, and even a couple of suggestions on baby stuff, like prams and so forth. I have no idea on any of it." She grinned then, giggling to her herself. Stacey really had no idea, and hoped that the sales person or even David knew a thing or two about it all. She then smiled at him, about the lunch. "Okay. I will allow you this time. Can't wait." Stacey was just glad to have company again. She hated being on her own, and David was the one constant in her life at that point in time. He was her therapist who just understood her, which she liked.
"Yes, I would rather the baby keeping me awake, then not doing anything. Sometimes it is not to feel the movement. I have to confess that I sometimes like to talk to it. Might sound funny, but they say that they can hear you. Not sure what else I can do to reassure it when it is acting up." Stacey laughed, then looked at David, as she felt the baby starting to calm down again. "I am glad too. I personally can't wait to see he or she, but I hope that it is a girl. Don't know why, but I would love to have a daughter. Someone I can show off in nice clothes, not that if I had a boy I couldn't do the same. But just having a girl would be nice. Just hope that they don't end up like me." She laughed again, just knowing how she was when she got older. But then thought about who the baby was also part of, and hoped that the baby had her traits and not the traits of the father.
Stacey had burped, and David had told her not to apologies. Then he went on about how that it was a sign of good manners in Chine. She raised her eyebrows, and nodded. "Never knew that." Stacey was never good with cultural stuff, but then wondered why he mentioned it. Maybe he likes to tell others bits of information. She didn't care, it was just another piece of information that she would hold onto. As David mention about the fizz having to go somewhere, she laughed, thinking about how it could have gone. Hearing him say that he would never see her again made her bit on her bottom lip again. "You might not have lost me, as it could have just come out the other end." Stacey put her hand up to her mouth, and laughed harder than she had ever done. Sometimes her mind just went to rude stuff, and she hoped that she hadn't grossed out David. "Sorry. Just the thought .... of what could have happened.... not a pretty sight from a woman... especially one who is pregnant." Finally after a few moments, she calmed down. That hard laughter made her hold onto her stomach, and was glad when she calmed down. If she had continued to laugh, she might have wet herself, and that wouldn't have been very nice.
Stacey rested back in the chair, as David talked about his mum's cravings. It was kind of nice to have a proper conversation with David, even though she was the one who was meant to be talking. But really, she was all talked out, and just wanted to have a normal conversation with him. Stacey smirked, seeing that funny look on David's face. "Maybe the combination doesn't sound nice, but to your mum, it was nice. Like my popcorn and peanut butter combination. But the sound of ice cream sounds nice. Though I would have personally changed it to chocolate ice cream." Stacey licked her lips then, making a mental note to pick up some chocolate ice cream on the way home from seeing David. Might be another pig out session with a litre of ice cream.
David continued to tell her about his family, and how he had to help take care of his younger siblings. "Wow David. I don't know how that could have been for you, as I am the youngest of two. Claudia, my sister is ten years older than me, and she left when I was seven. So since then, I haven't not seen or heard from her. I had to learn things for myself, somethings that I have done I am not proud of. So in some ways I hope that the baby is not like me in some respects." Stacey did miss her big sister, and wondered sometimes if Claudia even wanted to know or see Stacey. "But I feel that through those bad choices, even the newer ones, I have grown as a person, and hope that comes across to others." Stacey hadn't spoken to her parents since she had gone to collage, so had no idea how they were doing either.
Stacey nodded as David commented about the job more. She smiled all the more, knowing that she would be able to work, even if it meant that she was at home to do it. Though she hoped that nothing at home would be a distraction, which she could think of a few things already. "I hope so too. It would be money coming in, and just working whenever I was needed to work. I haven't written in a while, so I might be a bit rusty." When David asked her to tell him how she got on with the job, Stacey smiled warmly at him. "I will. Don't you worry about that. You are the reason that I am the way I am right now. I am happy and a more positive person." Stacey fiddled with her dress, just knowing that David was the reason for all of that.
When David said that it was the case about them both needing a friend, Stacey this time initiated contact, and put a hand on his arm. "Well then. We will just have to make sure that the other is free when one of us is in need of some company." It would be nice to just hang out with a friend, and maybe open up more. Though in reality, Stacey had probably told David a lot, even if it was in the comfort of his office. But it would be nice to tell him more, making him a close friend.
After realising what was actually happening between them, realising that David might have feelings for her, and her in return having feelings somewhere in her as well, it began to make her feel a bit freaked about it all. So Stacey had mentioned something about making a phone call, and tried to pick up all the bags at once, dropping a couple. She soon felt David's hands on her own, trying to take the bags off of her. Stacey still couldn't bear to look at him, though hearing what he was saying. She did care about causing herself an injury, but she just wanted to leave, and somehow sort out her own possible feelings for him.
Soon the bags were out of her hands, and she slowly looked at him. Whatever was happening, it was making her a bit uneasy. All Stacey wanted to do was just make a quick getaway, and it wasn't working out that way. "No. I think it is best that I just go and do it at home." Stacey tried to take the bags back, feeling that she just wanted to leave. Then she felt the baby begin to kick and move a bit more forcefully this time, and her hands left the bag handles, and went straight to her stomach. Stacey sat back in the lounge. As not to worry him, she thought she had better tell him to not worry. "The baby is just kicking a bit, that's all. Once it has stopped, I will be going." She looked away from him, and just didn't know what to do or say while the baby continued.
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Post by david on Dec 31, 2009 16:22:25 GMT -5
David nodded and smiled as Stacey agreed that everybody needed a pig out. It was true, it wasn’t the first time he had sat and ate a whole pizza by himself, followed by a tub of Ben & Jerry’s Cookie Dough ice cream. That usually happened when he was down, which wasn’t too often. It was slightly ironic that a therapist should have down days and not able to help himself. David chuckled when Stacey said she had to blame someone. “I guess you do, and what better than someone who isn’t able to speak up for themselves.” He teased, still smiling. He found it easy to tease and joke with Stacey, he just hoped she knew when he was teasing, he would hate for her to take anything he said the wrong way.
When David told Stacey she had to stop thinking negatively he had to smile at her as she spoke back to him, “It’s great that you feel so strongly about it Stacey, that’s how you should be thinking. So anytime you feel yourself getting negative, just think of the first appointment with me and how you don’t want to be like that again.” If she did that then hopefully she would never end up in hospital again, other than when she gave birth to her child. He had been so scared that day, and he’d only just met her. Scared for Stacey and scared for her unborn child. David had done everything he could to help Stacey through that tragic day, he had also gone above his call of duty afterward as well, making sure he was available whenever she needed him.
When Stacey spoke about how she missed doing things with someone, like the baby shopping, and how she was great to have him there, but it wasn’t the same as having a partner or a husband. Those words had actually cut through him like a knife. Not that any of them had been particularly bad, she had no idea how he felt about her, but he would kill be her partner, and maybe husband later. He still couldn’t quite understand why Brendan had given her up. He was crazy. However, at least it was giving him a slight chance, maybe, so he shouldn’t really be complaining. “I do understand Stacey. The amount of times I’d love to talk to a partner or wife about something, and only had my mom to tell. It’s just not the same.” David loved his mom, and his twin sisters, but like Stacey said, sometimes there were some things you would just rather talk to a partner about.
After Stacey had asked if he wanted to help her get some of the bigger baby things, he had jumped at the chance, and wondered if he had actually been a little too eager about it. He put it to the back of his mind when he saw Stacey’s response. That grin of hers was magical; it lit up her whole face. “You aren’t pushing any boundaries at all Stacey, I’d love to help.” If anybody is doing any boundary pushing it’s me, not you, he said to himself. Obviously she hadn’t picked up on his over eagerness to help her, which suited him fine. He had then offered to pay for their meal, by way of an award for all her good work and progress. He wasn’t sure how she would have taken that, but he was glad when she seemed to be alright with it. “Good, because I would have just thrown a strop like a child with his toy taken away from him, if you’d said no.” He teased, and chuckled slightly, Stacey then said she couldn’t wait, and David couldn’t help but grin brightly. “Me neither.” It was going to be great, shopping with Stacey and then having a meal with her, although he was beginning to wonder just how much longer he’d be able to keep his feelings in check for.
David smiled once more and nodded his head slightly when Stacey agreed she’d rather the baby keep her awake than not move at all. She then went on to say she talks to the baby sometimes, even if it sounded funny. However, David had heard of a lot of mothers who spoke to their unborn baby, in fact, he’d heard of a lot of fathers doing the same thing. Just visualising, that is something he would love to do. Just rest his head on his pregnant partner’s stomach and talk away to the child inside. Sadly, he didn’t have a pregnant partner, so he quickly shook that thought from his head. He couldn’t think of Stacey like that, not yet, not before she even knew how he felt and even when she did, what was to say she’d actually be happy with it? “It doesn’t sound funny at all. I’ve heard a lot of mothers and fathers talk to their unborn child.” As Stacey continued to talk some more, she mentioned she couldn’t wait to see him or her, but she was hoping for a little girl, so she could dress her up nicely, but just hoping if she had a girl they didn’t turn out like Stacey. David shook his head and laughed slightly. “I have to admit, if I had a pregnant partner or wife, I think I’d love for the child to be a girl. I know there’s all this fuss about men and their sons, but really, I’d love to have a daughter to show off and be proud of. And Stacey, you’ve made your mistakes, but you’ve learned from them, I personally don’t think there would be a better woman for your daughter, if you had a girl, to take after than yourself.” Was that just the soppiest David had ever been? Had he actually said too much there? Throughout the conversation, little things had been slipping from David which might give away his true feelings, even though he had been trying very hard to keep them to himself.
David smiled at Stacey as she said she never knew burping was a sign of good manners in China. “Yeah, full of useless little information, that’s me.” He was teasing her once more, but couldn’t help himself, as he had found the whole thing rather funny. She really didn’t need to apologise, she was only human and everybody burped, if they said they didn’t they were liars. Stacey then went on to say it may have come out the other end, slightly rude, but it hadn’t bothered David in the slightest, in fact, he thought it was rather funny. So when he saw Stacey put her hand up to her mouth and laugh heartily, a laugh he hadn’t seen her with before, he made him laugh too. Something else about her he couldn’t help but notice and love, she had an infectious laugh. Wait, had he really just used the word love in that sentence? Did he love Stacey? He thought he just really liked her, now with a myriad of emotions going through his head, he’d be lucky to say anything at all. When they both had calmed down, “I wouldn’t have liked to watch you float away, but I wouldn’t have said it was a bad sight. You look simply glowing Stacey.” Hell, his mouth had done it again. He was giving too many signs away when talking to her now, this was wrong, this was bad. She was going to work it out before he had a chance to tell her, if he even was going to tell her.
David had then begun to speak about his mom’s cravings when pregnant with his twin sisters, what Stacey said in response made sense. He smiled and nodded his head, “Oh I know it would have sounded and tasted wonderful to my mom at the time, but really, just the idea.” He shook his head and chuckled again. When Stacey spoke of her own cravings, popcorn and peanut butter, it didn’t seem quite so bad, although he still wasn’t sure he’d ever feel like eating it. “Well, it’s a known fact pregnancy does weird things to a female’s tastes. I’ve heard of vegetarians who crave meat while pregnant. I can’t begin to even contemplate how that must make them feel. All I can say is, with everything that comes with pregnancy, rather you than me. You females go through a lot, and despite what other men may think, I believe females are the stronger sex.” He wasn’t just saying that to please Stacey, he truly believed that was the case. He always had. When his dad passed away and left his mom with twin baby girls, David had helped her out, but if he’d only been a young child himself, he knew his mom would have coped because she was a strong woman. He also noted that chocolate ice cream seemed to be the kind Stacey liked, he took a mental note of that, should he ever need to know it in the future.
David had then told Stacey about his dad passing away, and helping his mom raise his twin baby sisters. “It wasn’t an easy time, but we had to stay strong and we pulled through it together.” When Stacey mentioned about her sister leaving when she was only seven, and how she wasn’t proud of some things she had done and in that respect hoped her child wouldn’t take after her, David gave her a weak smile. “You’ve learned from your mistakes Stacey, you’ll be bringing that child into the world with the person you are now. A child does and learns from their parents in the now, not in the past. Really you shouldn’t worry about it. It’s who you are now that really counts.” He reached his hand across then and gave hers a gentle squeeze and gave her a slightly warmer smile.
When Stacey spoke some more about the job she had applied for, she really seemed happy about it, and of course she would tell him how she got on, because she was the way she was now due to him. Well, really, it wasn’t just down to him. Stacey had done all the talking, and through talking, willed herself to become who she was now, all he had done was listen. “I can see the difference in you, it’s easy to see. However, I’m not the only reason you are the way you are now. You did a lot of the hard work yourself. All I did was to listen and give advice, at the end of the day, the change you’ve made, came down to you, and you already know how proud I am of you for that.” The job would be good for her, so long as she didn’t push herself, and being able to work from home, he couldn’t see that being much of a problem.
After David said they were both in the same boat about needing a friend, Stacey put her hand on his arm, even the touch through his shirt sleeve was comforting and sent shivers down his spine. He really didn’t know what to do. He was older than her by four years; Brendan was older than her and look what happened there. Who was to say she’d be happy with an older man again. He really had to get over these feelings, which were causing him so much turmoil and driving him crazily insane. He smiled brightly at her, “Yes we will.” He would damn well make sure he was free whenever she needed him that was for sure anyway.
What happened next was all a bit of a blur. David could only imagine she’d sensed his feelings for her, as she made a terrible excuse for needing to call the woman at the job she had spoken of and tried to get up, stumbling and struggling to pick up all the bags. He had offered for her to go and make the call and come back into his office, but she refused, saying it would be best to just do it at home. David really couldn’t stop her if that’s what she wanted to do. He saw her trying to take the bags back from him, but he held onto them rather tightly, somehow he could feel something wasn’t quite right. She then let go of the bags and her hands were on her stomach as she sat back onto the lounge. She told him the baby was just kicking a lot and she’d leave when it stopped. “Are you sure that’s all it is Stacey, you wouldn’t keep the truth from me would you?” God, who was he to talk about keeping the truth from someone? Hadn’t he been doing that for the past month?
He slowly sat down next to her, putting the bags back down on the ground, making sure he kept a good distance between them, he sighed. It was maybe time to tell her how he was feeling, even though he was nervous as hell about it. One he shouldn’t have been feeling this way about a patient all this time, and two, she might just knock him back, which he wouldn’t blame her, after everything she had been through, but it would make him feel so foolish. “Stacey there’s something I think I should tell you.”
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Jan 1, 2010 2:38:28 GMT -5
Stacey nodded, as David spoke to her about thinking about their first meeting, so that she wouldn't go back to how she was then. She never wanted to go back to that time, even though she had been glad that she had met and started seeing David as her therapist. It had been bad enough that she could have lost the baby, let alone lose her own life.
She had been glad that David understood about what she had been thinking at that point in time. Listening as he spoke about times when he spoke to him mum, but wanting to speak to a partner or wife about it, was a comfort to her. "No, it's not the same. And I can't wait to have that, you know? Have someone to talk to, that is more than my best friend, but also an understanding husband. I am so glad that you have been understanding about everything that I have said, and been there for me. Even outside of these sessions. I am very grateful."
Stacey smiled at David, "Thanks. It will be a big help, you have to know that." She made a mental note to make a list of what things she would or should get tomorrow, as she had an extra pair of hands to carry it all, or at least push the heavy trolley with the items inside it. Stacey smiled, as David basically said that he would have thrown a tantrum, comparing it to how a child would have acted. "Well I am glad that I don't have to see that side of you." She giggled a little, not being able to imagine him like that at all. He just seemed to be so together, which was good for her unstable, but pleasent life so far.
She knew that other mothers would do what she was doing, talking to her baby. Just hearing David reassure her with what she had said, made her smile. Stacey sat back, and rested her hands on her stomach. "If and when I have someone in my life, if it happens before the baby is born, I would love to just lounge about, and have them just talk to the baby as well. Not sure I would sing to it, not that great at it anyway, but if they had a good voice, I would let them do that. Might just soothe me and the baby enough to put us to sleep." Stacey just felt so at ease talking to David, that she continued what she would love to happen. "Then as I slept, would love for them to just continue to either speak to the baby, or just have their hands or head there. I don't think I would mind in the slightest. It would be good to know that they love me and the baby, even if it isn't their's. If a guy wants me in this condition, and a baby that isn't their own." Stacey looked down at her stomach, just thinking about what she had just said.
Then after Stacey commented about hoping it would be a girl, David replied. She just stare at him then, in like a trance, just taking in everything he said. Only a couple of times she nodded in reply to what he was saying, but overall, she just liked what she was hearing. Then hearing at the end about what he said, about being no better woman for her daughter to take after than herself, Stacey felt a lump in her throat, and tried to swallow it back. But the tears began to make her eyes all misty, and she felt one leave her right eye. Stacey quickly wiped it away, and half giggled. "Sorry. Just everything that you said was nice, and now gettting all emotional over it all." Another stray tear left her left eye this time, as Stacey kind of gave him a smile, and reached for the tissues on his desk, blowing her nose. Then she remembered that the last time she got so upset was about a week ago, when she had spilt milk in the apartment. Soon her eyes were clear again, and she put the tissue in her lap. "I just remembered that the last time I got so upset was when I spilt milk the other day. I was just a mess, but then felt silly over it all after."
David then a few moments later mentioned about her being simply glowing, and the waterworks started again. She didn't understand why she was getting all emotional now with the compliments. Once she composed her self, and had wiped at her face, she looked at David. "I don't understand where this is all coming from. Normally I only blush with the compliments, but it seems the emotions are going all haywire today on me. Just don't get it." Maybe this was part of this stage of the pregnancy. The more the baby grew, the more out of whack Stacey got herself. "Never read about this all happening. I knew about the hormones, but this is just ridiculous."
Stacey listened to what David said about the cravings a bit more. She had read about the weird cravings, but lucky for her she had none that she was completely grossed out to hear on the internet. Stacey then raised her eyebrows, when David said that he couldn't begin to even contemplate how the cravings make women feel, and that everything that comes with pregnancy, rather her than him. "Well, thanks David. Now I know how you feel about it all." She giggled then, adding that in so that he knew that she was kidding. But then she liked then how he said that he believed that females were the stronger sex. "Good that you recognise that." Stacey gave him a smile. "We go through so much, but I have to say that the pregnancy thing is the biggest thing that we have to go through. Well, as far as I am aware. Haven't gone through a lot at only twenty-five. So really this is the biggest thing for me. I knew what I was getting in for, when I found out I was pregnant. I did a lot of thinking then on my own, wondering if it was the best thing for me, even if I knew that there was someone else involved." Stacey rubbed at her stomach slightly, and then rested her hands there. "But I know that I have done the right thing in the long run. And I know that I will do my best to bring it up on my own, if that is what is meant to be."
David spoke a bit more about his past, and Stacey nodded. "Well, I am sure that your mum was glad for your help, putting your life on hold I suppose to do anything and everything for her and your sisters. You have done so much for me, that I can see that you would have been great with helping your mum." David then responded with what she needed to hear about what she said about her own past. He then gave her a gentle squeeze, and a warm smile. "I know. And I have you to thank for helping me along the way. Just need to keep going."
Stacey was listening to what David was saying, about him listening, and giving her advice, but it was her that had done all the work, and basically changed for the better. When he mentioned that she already knew how proud of her he was, Stacey gave him a weak smile, and nodded. "I know David. And you have no idea how happy I am right now, which what I have achieved in such a short time. I thought I would still be in a rut, even with seeing you. I think choosing you as my therapist was the best decision I have made in all my life." Now with that positive thinking, Stacey felt that she would now be able to work the job that she had gone for, and live a normal life as she could possibly live.
That sudden realisation of what she knew David was feeling towards her had just made her fumble and just give him some stupid excuse to get out of there right there and then. Stacey just couldn't face him, but had felt him trying to help, or try to stall her somehow with grabbing the bags. She had refused the suggestion of taking the call outside, and then come back in. Stacey didn't want to come back in. She wanted to just leave and never come back. But really, was that what she wanted? If she did that, she would never see David again. The only constant and stable person in her life right now, and if she lost that, she would be back to the start all over again. That might just bring on the feelings that she had when she had first started the sessions with David, and then all of her hard work would be down the drain.
Stacey could feel that David was holding onto those bags rather tightly, but her struggle to get them back was soon ceased, when she felt the baby kicking her so hard. So she moved back to sit down, not really wanting to, but knew that she wouldn't make it outside very far when she would have to eventually sit down. Stacey told him what was happening, and that she would go when it stoped. She had then looked away, and bit in the inside of her cheek a little, thinking about what might happen now as she waited for the baby to calm down again. Maybe it was doing all this, telling her that she had to stay, to hear what she wanted to hear.
David then asked her if that's all it is, and she wouldn't keep the truth from him would she. Stacey was happy that she had been all calm and back to normal over the last month, but now she was far from that. She was beginning to feel the emotions all over again. Her heart beating a little faster, and her eyes starting to sting again. Stacey was still looking away from David, trying so hard to blink back the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes. She just couldn't find the words, and all she could do was just shrug her shoulders slightly. Stacey could be so stubborn sometimes, standing her ground. But really was this the time to do that, in her condition?
What seemed like an eternity, Stacey finally heard David speak. She felt like she was frozen in her seat, as he said those words. She knew deep down, after figuring it all out, what he wanted to tell her. Without hesitation, Stacey spoke, but still not looking at him, though looking down at her hands. "I know what you want to say. It's too soon." Stacey then bent down, grabbed her bag, and just got up, and headed towards the door. Not looking back, she grabbed the door handle, opened the door, and then walked out, closing the door behind her. Stacey stopped just outside, leaning on the wall, and just slumped to the floor.
As she put her head in her hands, she closed her eyes. Her mind soon went back to eveything that had happened just then, and all she could see what David. David, the one guy who had been there for her from day one. David, the guy who had made up an excuse to be with her that day when she had gotten sick. David, the guy who would do anything for her, and go to her appointments at the hospital. David, the guy who she now realised loved her for her. She then murmered to herself. "Maybe I love him too."
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Post by david on Jan 3, 2010 13:59:51 GMT -5
David couldn’t help but smile as Stacey spoke some more about having that special someone in your life to talk to. He could relate to it well, what with not really having any proper relationship in all his years, due to helping his mom raise his twin sisters. Hearing her mention about having someone who was more than a best friend, but also an understanding husband, was making him scream on the inside. He knew he could be all of those things, if she would only let him in, but how could he expect her to let him in, when she didn’t even know how he felt in the first place? “You’re welcome Stacey, and you’re such a genuine, lovely, warm person, you will find someone, and hopefully soon. You deserve it.” What else could he say? Let it be me? I’m in love with you? I have been almost from the first day you walked into my office? No, that wouldn’t go down well, he still had to play it cool. He had a friend in Stacey, he wanted to hold onto that, at least.
When Stacey thanked him for his offer of help, he gave her a bright smile. It wasn’t going to be a problem for him. Why would it? He would be spending the day, or most of it at least, with a woman he truly had grown to adore and admire. Her strength and courage over the past few weeks were quite remarkable. You didn’t find that in a lot of people, let alone, a single, pregnant, young woman. “I think I know how much you appreciate it, and again, you’re welcome.” It really was a wonder she hadn’t worked it out by now. He was doing his best, not to be open about his feelings, but sometimes body language spoke volumes, and usually much clearer than words. When he had remarked about throwing a child strop if she had said he couldn’t help, he had to laugh at her response, especially when she giggled after her words. Everything about her was simply magical. “Why wouldn’t you like to see that side of me? Its fun, I have made the dourest person laugh with one of my child like strops.” He chuckled, and winked slightly at her. He was naturally teasing her, something he realised he couldn’t stop doing.
After Stacey had mentioned about talking to the baby, and how it might sound silly, David had said it didn’t sound silly at all, and how some expectant fathers, spoke to their unborn child as well. As Stacey spoke some more about how, if she met someone before the baby was born, she would love for them to talk to the baby and maybe sing if they had a good voice as it might help to keep her and the baby calm, David couldn’t help but give her a warm smile. He was about to say something, but then she continued to say and once she was asleep, she would love if they continued to talk to the baby, or just had their head or their hands resting on her stomach. David closed his eyes for a brief few seconds, just wondering what that would be like. He would love it so much. He really wanted to be a daddy, and of course he’d love his own child, but, really, being there to bring a child into the world who wouldn’t know their real father, and you were there for that child from the moment they entered the world, you were their daddy. He snapped himself back to reality, realising he had lost himself for a few seconds. “Well, I think that sounds wonderful, and someone who really loves you, is going to love the child you are carrying automatically, which would automatically make them talk or sing to the baby and rest their head or hands on your stomach. You will find them Stacey, they’re out there, and sometimes they’re closer than you think.” Shit, bugger and hell, now his mouth had really gone and done it. Too late to take it back now. If she commented, he would just have to try and give a typical example. In truth though, all of this was killing him, so many times now, he just wanted to scream out how he felt.
When Stacey mentioned about wanting a little girl, and David had replied, he watched as Stacey remained silent while he spoke, but noticed she was staring at him, like she was in some sort of trance or something. Her head was nodding, so he figured she was alright, and just listening to him carefully. After a few seconds, David saw her eyes beginning to water, and then a tear begin to fall. He was going to say he hadn’t meant to upset her, but then Stacey spoke, and he realised from her words, he hadn’t upset her at all, he just made her feel emotionally happy. “Well, I am only speaking the truth Stacey, you have to learn not to be so hard on yourself.” Stacey then went on to tell him about spilling milk the other day and how upset she had gotten over it. That was just typical hormones, they went haywire when a female was pregnant. David knew that much. “Pregnancy can do a lot of weird things to a woman’s body and emotions. It’s the constant change of hormones which does it. There will be things which will probably really upset you, but others would think, why? See, with having a doctor’s degree, even if it isn’t a medical one, I know certain things, and because of that, there are a lot of situations I would be able to handle, because I would expect them, you know?” He didn’t really know why he had just said all of that to Stacey, but it was true. He knew about females having emotional moments, their hormones going crazy, their crazy food fads, it all came with being pregnant, knowing all about it, gave him an overall advantage. It was just a pity he hadn’t been able to put any of that to good use, as he’d never had a proper relationship in his life, never mind a partner who had been pregnant.
Stacey got herself upset and crying again when David told her that she was simply glowing. Well she was, he had only been telling the truth, again. She then said she didn’t understand what was happening, as she usually only blushed over compliments, that she hadn’t read about it, knew about hormones, but how this was ridiculous. “It just affects pregnant women differently Stacey. Some just blush more, some suffer terrible mood swings, and some get very emotional, crying at the least thing, whether it’s good or bad. It’s by no means a bad thing.” He smiled warmly at her, letting her compose herself once more.
When David had commented on the whole craving thing and what women have to go through while pregnant, he had said rather Stacey then himself, but he had meant he knew he would never be strong enough to go through everything a female has to go through. He shook his head, as he smiled weakly, “I didn’t mean it like that.” Luckily though, Stacey began to giggle, but he had then added that he just felt females were the stronger sex. Stacey said it was good he recognised that and went on to say women go through a lot, but at twenty-five felt that pregnancy was probably one of the biggest things a woman had to go through. David nodded his head, at Stacey’s current age, he had to agree, but a female having to undergo a hysterectomy was also a big thing. He just continued to smile and nod his head as she spoke about wondering if pregnancy was the right thing for her, but knew she had done the right thing in the long run, even if she had to raise the baby on her own. She didn’t have to raise the baby on her own, he could help, he would love to help, but again, it wasn’t really something he could say. “Well, whatever happens, I know you will make a good mother, and I know you will do the best you can for that child.”
When David had spoken about his past, and Stacey replied, it was David’s turn to blush a little, something he did very little. “Thanks Stacey. Really though, at seventeen, I had n option, there was no way I could let her cope on her own. And I’ve only done my job with helping you.” Alright, so maybe he had done slightly more than his job with everything he had done outside of the sessions, but really, he couldn’t admit, that everything he did outside of the sessions was because he loved her, could he?, even if he did want to scream it out, like he had a few times during this final session already. It was killing him having to keep it to himself. He wasn’t sure how much longer he would be able to keep the truth from her. “I know you will continue to improve, you have the willpower to do so.”
As David spoke more about her sessions, saying she had done all the hard work, he kept smiling at her as she replied. He really was so very proud of her. “I can see how happy you are Stacey and I can’t deny it’s a good feeling to see you like that.” When Stacey added she was glad she had chosen him as her therapist, he had to bite his tongue, as he so wanted to say he was glad too, because she had no idea how he made him feel. “Thanks Stacey, I am glad I was able to help you.” I am so glad it was me you chose, because then I never would have met someone as wonderful as you are, someone as strong, and vivacious and beautiful as you. Alright, time to get out of the thoughts.
Then everything seemed to fall apart, when it was clear to see Stacey had worked out what was going on, or more, she had worked out David’s feelings for her. He was going to lose her before he even had a chance to do anything about it. He had held onto the bags rather tightly, making it his one way of trying to keep her in his office for as long as possible, but he knew in his heart, he couldn’t keep her there against her will. What he had been doing the past month was already technically against the medical, legal law, because the soon as he realised he had feelings for her, he should have suggested she see another therapist, but he couldn’t do it. He couldn’t not see her, and now look what was happening. Stacey had then said she didn’t want to make the call outside and come back into the office, she wanted to make the call at home. He would have to let her go, but then she had sat down on the sofa, obviously something was wrong. He had the instinct to ask if there was anything he could do, but then she said the baby was just kicking a lot. He had asked if that’s all it was and she wouldn’t keep the truth from him, realising how hypocritical that was, and then said he had something to tell her.
Of course, that was it really, she replied saying she knew what he was going to say and it was too soon. Inside he knew that, he knew he should have just kept his feelings to himself. He was definitely going to lose the best person to have come into his life, since the birth of his twin sisters, and it was his own fault. He nodded his head, “You’re right, I’m sorry.” There really wasn’t anything else he could say, as he watched her grab the bags and leave his office. Now what did he do? Go after? That would probably just make things worse. No, he couldn’t, he’d already upset her enough with what he had said. He hadn’t had to tell her the truth, she had worked it out and she was obviously repulsed by the idea. He made his way to his desk and just put his head on his hands. It wasn’t long after that he heard the door opening. He thought it was Stacey coming back, and he was about to jump up and tell her how terribly sorry he was for feeling the way he was, when he realised it was only his assistant Lynda. “What have you said? Stacey’s out there in a mess.” David just looked at Lynda, “What? She hasn’t left the building?” Lynda shook her head, “No, she’s outside your office slumped against the wall and in tears from what I could see. You gone and told her how you feel about her and she didn’t take it well, right?” David shook his head, “Not exactly, she worked it out, but you’re right, she didn’t take it well.” Lynda shook her head this time, and glared at David slightly, “Told you not to go down that path with her. You could get yourself struck off if this gets out.” David very seldom lost his temper, he couldn’t afford to with the fact he suffered from diabetes. “Lynda just go for the day, I’m not in the mood for this now. I know you mean well, but really.” Lynda glared at him again, “Fine, but you can’t keep cancelling other patients, or you will end up not having a job to do.” With that Lynda stormed out of his office and soon he heard the main office door closing, quite hard.
David didn’t know if he should go out to Stacey or not, would he just make it worse if he did? Or would Stacey be sitting out there, thinking he didn’t care enough if he sat in his office ignoring the fact he had just upset her? Eventually, he got up, moved toward the door, opened it, and saw Stacey slumped against the wall. He felt terrible. He bent down to her level, “I’m sorry Stacey, I never meant to cause any of this. I hope you can forgive me, if anything, I would at least like to be your friend.” He stood back up, and began to walk back into his office again, not wanting to crowd her, but left his office door open, so she could come in if she wanted to, which he truly hoped she did. They couldn’t leave it like that, they just couldn’t.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Jan 4, 2010 6:02:44 GMT -5
"Thanks," Stacey said, smiling at him. Well it was nice to hear that she was all those things. Pity that no one saw it right now. Maybe Brendan had all that time that they were together, but then things went horribly wrong. But now David knew more about her then she had ever told Brendan, though that was all due to him being her therapist. Something that she had been through might have been connected somehow, and some things had helped for him to know what the underlying problems were. So it was good in a way, just knowing that he was a friend as well.
It had been funny to Stacey, to hear that he might have thrown a tantrum if she had said no. Just the thought continued to make her laugh, but couldn't really picture David at all doing that for some reason. He then asked her why she wouldn't like to see that side of him, adding a chuckle and a wink after it. "Well, I am sure it is fun. But, nope. Can't really see you as a person to really get angry when you are told no." Stacey tried to imagine it, how he just described it, but she still couldn't see it happening.
Stacey noticed that warm smile coming from David, as she spoke about the baby, and what she imagined to happen, if and when she met someone. She hadn't meant to ramble on, but Stacey just wanted to share what she had in mind for it all. But knowing her she would meet someone after she had the baby. Though in reality, she could still meet someone, and even have another. So it would still work. After Stacey finished, she saw David was not paying attention, and she wondered what he was thinking about. But then he commented, and she nodded the entire time he spoke. Everything he said was true, and she was glad to hear every single word that was coming out of his mouth. But the last thing he said, she thought about. Stacey really looked at David then, wondering what he was saying. She looked sideways, "Okay. Do you know of someone who might be that way inclined to date someone who is very much pregnant?" If he did know someone, then all the better for her.
Stacey wiped at her eyes a little, as David commented about only speaking the truth, and to not be so hard on herself. "I know. Thank you," she said in a small voice. That moment soon finished, as Stacey mentioned about the crying over spilt milk. David commented more, and she nodded, remembering reading about most of it herself. "I had read about it, and I also have experienced a couple of big moodswings. I think I am a pro at some of it." Just remembering about the time when she wanted the roast pork, and the single smell of it was turning her off eating it. But she had wanted it, and she had run off and locked herself in the bathroom, throwing a shampoo bottle at the wall. She had felt so bad for Brendan, being on the receiving end of that. "Maybe it is a good thing that I don't have anyone right now. At least no one can experience my moodswings, or anything else. Or maybe I should just annoy you with it, as you said that you would be able to handle it all." Stacey smiled then, knowing that maybe she should do that then, just come around and annoy David when she was in a mood.
She listened again, after she had gotten so emotional all over a compliment. "I know. But in all honesty, I have been through the blushes, and the moodswings. But now it seems that I now am going through the emotional side of it." Stacey rolled her eyes, "That's just great." She finally calmed down, and just couldn't believe that she was actually going to go through every single thing that she had read about. What was next?
Stacey smiled, hoping that she would be a good mother to her baby. She had been good before the breakup, but then not so good to it during the time when everything went to shit. But now, she felt that her life was getting back on track, with everything that was going for her now. "Well with your help tomorrow, we might just get the things that I need for the baby. I just want the best for it, with what I can afford, you know?"
"I know. And I am grateful for what you have done for me, and what you will do for me tomorrow. If I know someone who needs a therapist, I will be sure to recommend you to them. I would have only positive things to say, don't you worry." Then David had commented about she will continue to improve. Just hearing what he said was letting the emotions start to take her over again, but she was able to catch herself in time before any more tears decided to fall. "Thanks. And I hope so."
Stacey smiled warmly at David, as he smiled back, and commented about what he was seeing, and how he was feeling. "Well, still have you to thank with helping me realise a few things. I knew I needed the help, but had to find that willpower to actually do something about it. I know that it is all me, but I still know that you have played a part it in all as well." When David commented that he was glad that he was able to help, she gave him a smile. Well it was only true.
But then Stacey figured out what David was feeling towards her, and she decided that it was best for her to just go and leave. Though she had to stay and wait for the baby to stop kicking in order for her to walk out on David. Stacey couldn't understand how feelings like this could happen between them. She didn't think that she had done anything to lead him on at all. But in her current condition, some things were fuzzy, so she may have said or done something that she hadn't really noticed. Or if she had said something that may have just given him the wrong idea. She hoped not, but then was finally able to go. Stacey soon told him that she knew what he was going to say, and that it was too soon. David commented, apologising. She wanted to look him right in the eye, and say that you should be sorry. But she just didn't think it was the right thing to do. Not at this point in time.
So Stacey got up, grabbed the bags, and left his office. But she didn't get very far when she lent against the wall, and slumped onto the floor, leaving the bags messily sit around her. The thoughts of David just whirled around in her head, making her realise that maybe she did have feelings to return his own for her. Maybe. That was a big word that could mean anything. What she knew she would have to hear from her heart was 'definately'. Her head wasn't in her hands for long, when she felt a gentle hand on her shoulder. Stacey thought it might have been David, but as she looked up, she saw the face of Lynda. "Are you okay?" Stacey started to cry, shaking her head. "No. I just need some space." Lynda nodded, and opened the door to David's office.
Great, thought Stacey, so the secretary is going to go in there and tell him that his patient is out there crying. Well, she had done enough of that this session, but this time around it was tears of confusion. Stacey didn't know what to do, and then wondered if he would actually come out and see if she was okay. She was about to make a move off the ground, when Lynda walked passed her very hastly. Stacey looked sideways to see her grab her bag, and storm out the main door, letting the door close loudly. She now didn't know what to do. She was now alone in the same building as David. Stacey didn't know whether to get up and just go, with no more words said between her and David. Or should she just get up, and head back into his office, and try and talk out her feelings that were now getting more evident.
Stacey lent her head back against the wall, trying to compose herself to do one of the things that she thought of, when she heard the door open. She closed her eyes, not wanting to face him at all, even though she was acting childish. As he spoke, she decided that it was best to just face him, so Stacey opened her eyes, and looked at David. He did look sorry, as he spoke, and her heart started to break a little. She knew that the tears were going to fall all over again, but she didn't want them to. David soon finished what he wanted to say, then got up, and headed back into his office. All Stacey could do was stare at the wall opposite his office. She knew that David was being sincere. That was always the way he was with her. Stacey also knew that she couldn't hold a grudge for someone who had helped her so much already. More than helped with what she needed, he had helped her so much outside of their sessions, and she was grateful for it all. So now she had to be the bigger person, and go in there and face him, and talk through it all.
Stacey slowly got up off the floor, picked up her bags, and slowly made her way into the room. She just concentrated on the chair that she knew so well, and placed the bags beside it, and sat down. Without thinking, Stacey placed her hands on her stomach, and knew what she was about to say was the complete truth now. Her heart was going to win, and Stacey was starting to feel nervous. Looking down at where her hands were, she knew that she had better start talking. "I am not mad at you, so you might be relieved at that. I am not sure if I have said or done anything to manifest these feelings that you so obviously have for me. But I ... um..." Stacey let out a sigh, then slowly moved her gaze from her hands, up to look at David. Her heart was beating so fast, and she hoped that what happened at her first appointment didnt happen now. But she had to say it.
"... I think I have feelings for you also."
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Post by david on Jan 7, 2010 20:21:08 GMT -5
Well it would seem Stacey had worked David out rather well, because when he was teasing her about throwing a childhood strop and it being fun, Stacey had said she was sure it was fun but couldn’t really see him being the type to get angry when he was told no. She was right, David seldom lost his temper, he was such an easy going guy. “Alright, you got me. I was teasing, I’ve never really got angry in my life, but it made you think and made you laugh, so that’s good enough for me.” He couldn’t deny it would have been funny to keep the teasing going just a bit longer, but it probably would have got boring rather soon.
When Stacey had told David her ideas on what she would like if she met someone before the baby was born, he had smiled the whole time she was speaking, and then he told her that someone who really loved her, would automatically love the baby she was carrying, and she would find them, and sometimes they were closer than you think. He hadn’t really meant to say the last few words, and he’d hoped she wouldn’t have picked up on it, but she had. She then asked if he knew of someone. Now what was he going to say? He just had to stumble out with something and hope she wouldn’t go over it again. “Maybe, but you probably wouldn’t like them anyway.” That was the best he could come up with, please don’t make her ask about it again, he thought.
David had then showered Stacey in a lot of compliments which had led to her to cry, he then confirmed he was only telling the truth and she shouldn’t be so hard on herself. When she replied, he gave her a warm smile and then wondered if he should stop the compliments if she was getting so emotional over them it made her cry. However, David knew, he wouldn’t be able to do that. He liked Stacey and he knew the compliments would just keep coming whether he wanted them to or not. David had then went into more detail about her mood swings and how having slight medical training for being the therapist he was, he would probably be in a better situation to handle those sorts of things. When Stacey said maybe it was better she had nobody in her life right now, or she should annoy him, since he’d said he could handle it, he chuckled slightly.
“Well, you should never think it’s a good thing you have nobody in your life just now, anybody who truly loved you, would put up with the mood swings, it’s all a part of pregnancy, and to be honest with you, if you want to come and annoy me, you know I won’t turn you away.” He gave her another warm smile, and what he said was the truth, he wouldn’t turn her away. Not that he had been on the receiving end of a pregnancy mood swing before, because his mom was quite calm with the twins, but he was living in a house with three females, and knew enough about womanly strops, he figured pregnancy mood swings wouldn’t be much worse.
Stacey then spoke some more about having already gone through the blushes and mood swings, and now this just seemed to be another part of it, and commented that it was just great. It didn’t take a scientist to work out that Stacey was being a little sarcastic with that remark. “You shouldn’t let it get you down, so what if you shed a few tears over a compliment, I actually think it’s kind of sweet, and it’s going to be like that forever.” His voice was soft, and hopefully understanding, in truth, if she was with him, and she cried at every compliment he gave her, he wouldn’t give a damn, he’d just hand her a tissue and rub her shoulders gently, then when she’d calmed down, they would probably both have a bit of a laugh over it later.
When Stacey said with his help they might just get the rest of the things for the baby and how she wants the best she can afford. David nodded his head. He understood that, however, if there was something she saw, she really wanted, and then looked at something else as it was a cheaper option, he’d offer to pay the difference, so she could get the slightly better one. Not because he felt he had to, but because he would want to. Thinking like this however, was making him think more and more, that he should tell her how he was feeling, because it wasn’t every day your therapist offered to pay the difference on an item for your unborn baby he had no real connection to. “Of course you do Stacey, that’s only natural.” It was all he could think of to say for now, it would be soon to tell her how he felt, it wasn’t that long ago she was in turmoil over a broken relationship, what good would it do either of them, for his feelings to suddenly be admitted?
Stacey had then commented that she was grateful for everything he had done for her, and will be doing for her, and she would recommend him to people who might need a therapist. David smiled brightly then, “Thank you Stacey.” He had then said she would only continue to improve, she thanked him then, and added that she hoped so. “You will, have faith in yourself.” She had done so well in such a short space of time, that really, the only way to go now from here was forward and hopefully that’s exactly what will happen for her.
David had said that Stacey had really done all the hard work and all he had done was listen, but she commented saying that she still had him to thank for helping her realise a few things, and maybe that was true, so instead of arguing the point any further, he just gave her a small nod of his head, with another warm smile, “Very well then Stacey.” Then the shit hit the fan, so to speak, when Stacey worked out his feelings for her. He knew he should have told her himself, rather than have her work it out, but he really had thought it would be too soon. Now she knew, and she didn’t seem too happy, and he couldn’t really blame her. He was her therapist, and he really ought to have known better.
Now he was sitting at his office desk, annoyed with himself, and mulling things over, wondering what was going to happen now, while Stacey was outside, and he hadn’t even realised it. However he soon found out when his assistant Lynda came in to tell him Stacey was upset outside his office and what had he done. Not being able to face what he had done with his assistant Lynda telling him she had told him so, he told her to go home, and that’s exactly what she did, leaving him alone in his office with Stacey outside.
He mulled over for a few minutes on whether to go outside to her, or let her come into him if that’s what she wanted to do. However, he couldn’t just leave it, because she may have chosen the option to just walk out and leave him. So, he had went outside and apologised, telling her he hadn’t meant to cause any upset and hoped they could be friends at least. He then left her and went back into his office, leaving the door open should she decide to come back in, but he figured that she would probably just g home. He was wrong. He watched as she back down into the plush seat she had used so often for her sessions, and David got up from his desk and moved to the seat across from her, wondering and worried about what he was going to hear her say.
Her first words were a great comfort to him, when she said that she wasn’t mad at him, so he felt himself relax slightly, but he was still not looking forward to hearing what else she may have to say to him. As he listened to her, he could feel his heart beating so hard he thought it might actually burst out of his chest, and as she said some of those other words, he wanted to just get up and hug her in his arms, because she hadn’t done anything to manifest his feelings, they had come about naturally and even taken him by surprise, but she wasn’t quite finished, as her final words, surprised him even more. However, the word think was in there, so he wasn’t about to leap for joy over it, she obviously still had a lot of thinking to do yet. However, there was something he had say, “Stacey, first of all, you did nothing to bring these feelings on, so, no blaming yourself, I will not have it, they were completely natural and took even me by surprise. This kind of thing has never happened to me before, you’re my patient, and I knew it was wrong, and yet, I couldn’t stop them. As for your feelings, well I’m not going to rush you into anything you might regret, if you need time, you have it. You know how to contact me. I’ll leave the rest up to you now.”
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Jan 8, 2010 6:21:13 GMT -5
{ooc - the first couple of paragraphs might be small, but trying to tie up older things said between them.}
Stacey kind of smirked then, hearing that she had got how he was really. So she was right. Stacey looked at him, just knowing that he wouldn't be the type to just go and have a spat about something. Just didn't seem the type. "Good. And it did make me think, even though I knew I was right." She laughed then, still finding it funny.
Stacey felt that she was all ears to hear what David's comment was, after she had asked if he knew someone. "Well, okay then. As long as you are sure." Stacey shrugged. "But you know me and guys, type doesn't matter." That was the truth, but deep down Stacey hoped that she would meet someone who really cared for her, like how she thought Brendan had.
Stacey smiled a little then, as David commented about her saying about having nobody in her life, and about the whole moodswing thing. She so wanted to say that why didn't someone tell her about them, and then smiled more when he said that if she wanted to come and annoy him, she had to know that he wouldn't turn her away. "Okay. Well I know where you work, so it's all good."
Just thinking about this part of her emotions out of wack now, was kind of silly. But unfortunately she would have to deal with it now, as it seems that it was going to happen alot. The part where David said that 'it was sweet' about her shedding a few tears over the compliments, made her wonder if it was a good or bad thing. But really, if he said that, she wondered why he had said it. Not what she would have expected him to say, if he was thinking about her in a different way. But then she shook that thought from her head. That was just silly. "Okay. Well I just hope that it doesn't continue like this till the end, that is all." Stacey could just imagine herself standing in a supermarket, and someone complimented her on how she looked, leading her to break down a cry. Not a pretty sight at all in her mind.
When Stacey came in and sat down in the chair, still unable to even look at him, she did notice that David moved from his desk to the seat across from her. Once she had gotten out everything that she wanted to say to him, Stacey felt a bit better. She hated the last few moments between them. Stacey had gotten on so well with David, from the very first appointment, through all the way up to today's final one. But now it all seemed just different all of a sudden. She had realied that David liked her more than a friend, and now her own feelings towards him were surfacing. Stacey had no idea how she was going to handle the situation now.
But then David replied, and she continued to look into his face, as he spoke. So one good thing was said. She hadn't led him on in anyway. That was kind of a relief, and she sighed, giving David a weak smile. Just hearing him talking about the feelings just happening, made her wonder what he was seeing in her for him to like her instantly. Stacey knew that it wouldn't have been possible if she had liked him instantly, and told him. She would have had to stop seeing him, and that would have just made her upset. Then David continued, talking about her own feelings. She nodded, then moved her focus from him, down to her hands.
Okay, so now it sounded like he was going to leave her to decide what she wanted to do. In all honesty, her feelings for him only came to the surface, after she realised his own feelings for her. What was she to do? Just leave now, and then have a think about it? What if she thought too much, and she decided that she should not talk to him anymore? What if she just left and never came back, leaving someone behind as nice as him? What if... Why was she going through all this in her head right now?
Looking up at him again, she felt so confused. He was the most understanding, kind, and thoughful guy she had ever come across, apart from others who must not be named now. How could she really let him go, and slip through her fingers. She might never come across a guy like him, ever, in her life. Stacey brought in her lips, then licked them. Letting out another sigh, she knew what she had to do.
"I... um... I'm not sure what to say to any of that. I am glad that I didn't do anything to lead you on. I would have felt bad if that was the case. I am sure about my feelings, and yet kind of surprised at them. I didn't know I had them, until I realised that you liked me the way I now know you do. I just... I don't know..." Stacey quickly got up out the chair. She looked around, "I don't know what else to do but this." Stacey turned to face the door, like she wanted to exit. But it felt like her feet were glued to the ground. She couldn't move in that direction. Stacey then turned to face David, and felt like her feet wanted to move. So her feet were basically telling her what to do. Stacey walked the short distance over to David, quickly put her hand on his face, and kissed him.
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Post by david on Jan 15, 2010 21:35:57 GMT -5
{ooc - raah - sorry for all these delays - hopefully won't get like this again - but difficult whith my tv shows back again in the States which we download}
David couldn’t help but chuckle some more at Stacey’s response when he said he wouldn’t really throw a child tantrum, but it had been fun to make her think he would. He left it at that, not wanting to go over the same points of conversation over and over. When Stacey laughed, David’s chuckle turned into a laugh of his own and he couldn’t help but think once more how nice a laugh she had. After David’s little slip up where he said someone was there for her and probably closer than she thought, he had of course been referring to himself, Stacey asked who he was referring to. Well he couldn’t tell her he hadn’t meant to say that because I was talking about myself, instead he had told her that he maybe knew someone but she probably wouldn’t like them anyway. When Stacey replied this time, asking if he was sure, David nodded his head, “I am sure, and it should matter Stacey. You deserve the best.” This time he wasn’t just referring to himself, he truly believed she deserved the best. When David had said he would be able to handle the whole mood swing thing and said she could come and annoy him if she wanted to, he smiled when she said she knew where he worked so it was all good. Yes, it was all good. David suddenly realised he would do anything for Stacey.
When Stacey spoke more of her emotions and how she hoped she wouldn’t break down and cry over compliments until the baby was born, in a way David could understand why it could get embarrassing. However, David would always think it was sweet if she did it around him, but he decided not to say that again. “I can only say that time will tell, but if it’s embarrassing you or getting you down a lot, then let’s hope it doesn’t continue until you give birth.” He wanted Stacey to be happy, she deserved to be happy, and she should be enjoying this pregnancy, the thought that she hadn’t been able to enjoy it much since she found out she was pregnant tugged at his heart.
Now Stacey was sitting in the plush seat again, after coming back into his office, David wasn’t sure what was going to be said. He knew his feelings had been wrong, and yet he had been unable to stop them. David had moved to sit across from Stacey and it took her quite a bit of time to say anything to him. David couldn’t blame her though, after what she had just discovered, it would probably render the best of women speechless, especially since he was her therapist, and she was his patient. Of course David got lost in his thoughts after she did speak to him, and took a bit of time to say something back, realising he had waited probably too long, he eventually spoke back to her telling her that she hadn’t led him on, his feelings were natural and had even taken him by surprise.
David had then went on to say that he wasn’t about to rush her into making any decisions, and she knew where and how to contact him when she was ready. Although he truly had felt like he may have blown it, but she had come back into his office, when she could easily have just left. So, maybe not all hope was lost? Again after he spoke it took Stacey some time to say anything back to him, he just wasn’t sure if the delay in speaking was a good or a bad sign. When she did begin to speak, she seemed to stumble over her words, which again made him wonder if what she was going to say was good or bad. However, David just kept a straight face with his eyes showing that behind it he was smiling. However when she said she was glad she hadn’t led him on in anyway, he couldn’t help but allow a smile on his face.
Stacey then spoke some more of her unexpected feelings, and saying she didn’t know she had them, until she was aware of his feelings for her. She then said she didn’t know and got up from the chair. Then said she didn’t know what to do but this, and as she said that she turned away from him. David was sure she was going to walk out of his life forever. She was obviously disgusted by his feelings; however, she didn’t walk out the door. She just stood there. Then she turned to face him, and David was just standing with his hands on his head, running through his short hair in a very exasperated way, thinking he was going to lose her. He dropped his hands from his head, and just looked at her, wondering what she was going to say now.
She didn’t say anything though, but she moved toward him, and then before he knew what was happening, her hand was on his face and she was kissing him. It was now David’s turn to be unsure what to do, but his feelings had been building up for Stacey over the past couple of weeks, and he knew what he was feeling was right and true, and he really couldn’t hold back any longer. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her to him as he kissed her with quite a fierce passion. Well, it wasn’t as if he had to worry about Lynda walking in on them. However, he did realise one thing, she was still technically his patient. After a couple of moments, with his body and hands shaking, and head spinning, he gently pulled apart from the kiss.
“Alright, so, does that mean what I think it means, because if it does, then you really do have to confirm that you are no longer my patient.” His eyes were twinkling with laughter, but his lips were only smiling, and he put his finger to his lips for a brief second, that kiss was god damned amazing, he knew his feelings were true, that kiss just proved it. Then just looking at her, he couldn’t help himself, they were alone anyway, “Damn it to hell, who cares, I’ve broken enough of the rules already, one more isn’t going to hurt, besides, not as if you’re my patient anymore, right?” He allowed a few seconds for Stacey to answer, if she wanted to, before taking her in his arms, and kissing her once again, this time a little more tenderly but still with much passion.
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Post by Anastacia Potter on Jan 16, 2010 5:40:08 GMT -5
Stacey nodded, when David commented on her emotions, telling her if it's embarrassing her or getting her down a lot then hope that it doesn't continue until she gives birth. Well that part of the pregnancy would be quite emotional, Stacey could only imagine. She had started to prepare herself for what might happen when in labour, and some of the things she had seen on YouTube was scaring her a bit. Stacey just hoped by that time she had someone she could count on to be with her.
When Stacey mentioned that she was glad that she hadn't led him on in anyway, she saw that smile appear on his face. Well that makes two of us, thought Stacey, reading his smile as a relief probably. But then Stacey didn't know what to say to him, speaking in broken sentences, finally standing, wanting to walk out. Though her feet had a hidden agenda, making her walk towards David. She saw him drop his hands, which had been on his head. Her heart was beating fast, but knew that she had to do something before she decided that leaving was the best thing to do.
So Anastacia Potter was making the first move, even though the true feelings started with David. Stacey kissed him, slowly at first, not sure of his reaction to her being so forward. But then finally she felt movement, feeling a bit relieved over it. Stacey felt David's arms wrap around her waist, and her body was then moved closer to his. Her heart skipped a bit, feeling that kiss of his quite passionate. Stacey couldn't get any closer, what with her baby bump in the way, but she responded more with the kiss, allowing herself to get lost in it, letting her tongue explore a little, but not enough to be right in there.
After a few moments, Stacey felt David pull apart from the kiss. She slowly looked at him, feeling her face all flushed from the kiss. She listened to what he said, about her having to basically confirm that she was no longer a patient. Stacey was about to answer, but then watched David put a finger to his smiling lips for a second. She smiled warmly at him. "It was pretty good, that kiss." Stacey was going to answer again, when David spoke up, looking right at her. She couldn't hold back a giggle, like she was a school girl who was now in love with her secret crush that no one knew about.
All Stacey could do was continue to giggle, and shake her head, looking down at her feet. She then slowly looked up at David. "No. Not a patient anymore. So we can now establish that fact instantly." Stacey then smirked, "And I won't tell anyone about your little rules braking. Your secret is safe with me." Not another word was said then, as David took her in his arms, and kissed her once again. As they started to kiss, Stacey wrapped her arms around David's neck. Her fingers started to play with his hair near his neck, just enjoying the moment.
Stacey had been hoping for someone to come along before the baby was born, and here was David. He was kind of like her knight in shining armour, here to rescue her from her dramatic life. Hopefully things will go back to normal, Stacey thought. After a few moments of kissing, Stacey this time broke apart from David. She sighed slightly, and smiled warmly at him. Just looking at him was making her like him more and more in a way more than a good friend. "So. Where do we go from here? I don't know where to begin with this new relationship we obviously have now." It hadn't been that long since her and Brendan had broken up, but she somehow felt that she was a bit rusty in the whole dating scene all over again.
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